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so maybe having a 5 days a week nightly job, and a part time week day and weekend job was not the right decision for me lol because im really starting to feel it. Its not like the other job is an office job, both jobs require lots of lifting, and moving fast on my feet for long hours. yesterday i was waitressing from 5:30pm to 1:30 am and then i got up in time for my 2:00pm shift at my banquet job to work a wedding which i just got home from 20 minutes ago. (its 1:30 am right now) 

not only am i tired, but during the week all i have time for is going to the gym, spending a few hours running whatever errands need to be run (or finishing up whatever activities need to be completed) and then heading to work. and then of course im lucky to get one day off during my weekend (usually sundays)  which means i barely have a social life right now lol. I know that i need the money, and i am making better money, but at the same time i feel like im wasting the rest of my summer. i cant request any more days off (because i already took my alaska trip, a trip for my cousins wedding, and a day off for my friends baby shower) and still i want to go camping, and take road trips, and do all the fun things everyone else is doing. *sigh*
 
i guess this is just part of becoming a grown up 😛 making sacrifices for my future. at least i know it wont always  like this. soon i will have taken and completed bartending school, and only be having to work one job! leaving me time to focus more on acting and friends and family ^_^ *sigh* i have a love hate relationship with money.