whatever tomorrow brings i’ll be there

my horoscope for today


You might be feeling bored with your day-to-day life, but even the smallest change will shake things up. Try varying your routine a tiny bit and see what happens. You’ll be surprised

well, funny thing is, today is unlike most days after all ^_^ you know why? im not hanging out with anyone! im aaaaalll alone! yup ^_^ im having me time. megan is with her mom, courtney is staying home, liz had to go to her grandmas, ali is at home, and so on. any way yea here i am with no plans and i have a very familiar feeling that i havent had in so long. a feeling of….quiet….of…..just….being alone! just having nobody around and doing things i used to do all the time when i had more time to myself. i really loved writing poetry and songs and writing in my diaries, and then suddenly life swept me away from all of it and i just kinda brushed it off. but it was something very important to me, to my lifestyle. it make me happy and helps me let go of a lot of stress. from now on im making sure no matter what, i make time to read, write, type, look at poetry, or do something i enjoy for myself. something that stimulates the mind, something creative ^_^. this is nice.

my love horoscope for today
Investing in the latest dating trend may be a bad investment. Stick to the old-fashioned approach and save your membership fee. Your charm is best experienced in person, so your smile can light up the room.
 
eh well, i havent ever dated. the only guys who ever asked me on a date bailed. in other words never called. sigh. but im not desperate. no way. im never desperate. im just waitin, working on myself, no need to go out looking. if i approach a guy, ask him on a date, and he says yes. how will i know he didnt just say yes because i have big boobs? or because he just thinks im easy since i asked him. or maybe he will think im desperate and think he can get what he wants and go on his way? well there are many different reasons, but i find it would be easier to believe  a guy is interested in me, if he is the one who approaches. im not sayin he wont notice looks first because, well, everyone cant help but be attracted to someone first before approaching, but id simply like him to say something that will show hes really interested in getting to know me rathar then get a piece of ass or have other expectations in mind. someone who will see me as a person, a mystery to unfold and see where it leads. ^_^ hmm. i wonder if my smile has ever lit up a room according to someones thoughts. that would be nice.

any way today was relaxing and fun! i was desperate for new clothes because i have been wearing the same clothes over and over and i havent shopped since january! plus my only pairs of cackis were ruined. so what is a girl to do? i didnt have the time to go to a mall so i just got everything at fred myers. but not to worry, everything i got was on sale! just the way i like it ^_^ so happy. well aj was supposed to hang with me today but he had made plans earlier to go to dinner with his ( kinda) dad. i hope he had a good time. courtney was supposed to hang too but she decided to stay home. and i guess im really glad now actually that for once i have nothing to do. because ive discovered what its like to be like this again after so long haha. its nice. hmm, so yea. tomorrow is a long day at wild waves! im excited but just not excited about havin to get up so early 😛 ugh. ive gotta go shave my legs, and other things lol, soon to get ready. good thing i just bought a new bikini! i dont know what happened to my other one :P. well. here i am, sittin on my bed, listening to incubus and coldplay, with my cat sleeping near me all cozy, and im at peace. its times like these that make me lonely though. that make me want to have the best feeling in the world again. to feel like my feet havent touched the ground in a long time, to feel things that are unexplained with words again. someday 🙂 i know it will happen. when its right. sigh. for now ive got me, my friends, my family, and my animals to give my all the love i need hehe. well goodnight diary.
Hannah