what am i gonna do?
ok……..tonight i was talkin to my friend jimmy and maggie and adriel was stayin the night at jimmys house and suddenly jimmy and maggie started talkin about how me and adriel should get together and that we were perfefct for eachoter and i told them it was impossible cus he dint like me and we were only friends and i dint want to ruin the friendship with a relationship and i was scared to get hurt. then they told me adriel DID like me and i just got all panicy cus i dint know wat to say and stuff and i was nervous and plus, i dint want to talk about it cus i knew adriel was there and i was scared cus (like i said) i was scared to have a relationship. so (like i always did wenever the subject of love and and adriel put together came up) i said i had to go. and then heres the convo me and jimmy had next…..
Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation.
SILENT says:
i need to talk
SILENT says:
hold ups
SILENT says:
geez
hannah says:
hmm?
hannah says:
i told u i was gonna go
SILENT says:
can i juss say sum stuff
SILENT says:
FINE BUH BYE
hannah says:
OK
hannah says:
im listening
SILENT says:
JUSS RUN LIKE U ALWAYS DO
hannah says:
wat jimbob
hannah says:
hannah says:
sorry
SILENT says:
BYE
hannah says:
i said i was sorry
SILENT says:
AT LEAST I CAN FACE MY FEARS
hannah says:
and how do u know i run?
hannah says:
is this jimmy?
hannah says:
well i cant ok!
SILENT says:
YEAH
SILENT says:
I TOLD U ADREIL IS UPSTAIRS
hannah says:
i cant face my fears and thats my problem!
SILENT says:
ITS JUSS ME AND U
hannah says:
gosh i just cant
SILENT says:
well i try
hannah says:
i dont know y
SILENT says:
ohk i talk to u friend to friend here
SILENT says:
cuz ive known u and adriel
SILENT says:
and i no adriel wouldnt cheat on u and hes scared you will avoid him thats y
hannah says:
what?
SILENT says:
he says he dont like u
hannah says:
well i told u he dint
hannah says:
and i thought he was upstairs!
SILENT says:
cuz hes scared u will avoid him
hannah says:
i would never avoid him
SILENT says:
he is i talk to lhim bout this
hannah says:
the only times i have was wen i tried to get over him
SILENT says:
before and juss listen for once
hannah says:
i am
hannah says:
k go on
SILENT says:
ohk
SILENT says:
he likes u right
SILENT says:
now dont type yet im slow at this
SILENT says:
well he dont want to say nuthin cus hes afraid u might avoid him or sumthin
SILENT says:
and he dont want u gettin hurt
SILENT says:
so he juss rather not talks bout it
SILENT says:
maybe u two can build a relationship
SILENT says:
never no thou
SILENT says:
but i think u two should talk
hannah says:
but i wouldnt know what to say
hannah says:
if we had a relationship i woud never avoid him adn id never hurt him
hannah says:
im just afraid that hed hurt me
hannah says:
but i cant say hed be perfect
hannah says:
everyone makes mistakes
SILENT says:
yeah and u build on that
hannah says:
but what about our friendship
hannah says:
and im really shy
hannah says:
its hard for me to express how i feel
SILENT says:
but how many times are u goin to avoid this subject
hannah says:
guess its been kinda obvious huh
SILENT says:
yeah
SILENT says:
but he thinks u would avoid him if u ever did break up
SILENT says:
cuz i no for a fact he would stay friends wit u
hannah says:
well all i can say is if we did break up i would be hurt cus of course hed have to be the dumper cus i wouldnt dump him
hannah says:
but i woud ger over it after awhile
hannah says:
hed just have to give me time and space
hannah says:
but i dont think our freindship would ever be as close as it was before
hannah says:
thats what im afraid of
hannah says:
maybe it will be i dont know
hannah says:
maybe if we broke up i would get over him
hannah says:
but if i dint
hannah says:
it would still be harder for me
SILENT says:
see hes friends wit all his ex’s its u hes worried about thas y he doesnt mention the subject
hannah says:
no matter what
hannah says:
i will always be his friend
hannah says:
i wouldnt just stop talkin to him
hannah says:
like i said
hannah says:
id just need time
hannah says:
and then maybe after a week or somethin wen i was ok id call him
hannah says:
but he has to learn something
SILENT says:
and wat is thta
SILENT says:
that
hannah says:
sometimes u cant prevent someone from gettin hurt no matter how hard u try
hannah says:
if he broke up with me sure id be hurt he cant prevent that
hannah says:
and maybe id still be hurt if i still liked him
hannah says:
but id always be his freinds
hannah says:
friend
hannah says:
no matter hwat
hannah says:
what
hannah says:
he doesnt need to worry about that
hannah says:
SILENT says:
well u do wat ur heart desires alright
hannah says:
i cant make a first move
hannah says:
im way to shy
hannah says:
but watever happens happens
hannah says:
i do want a relationship
hannah says:
but i just have to think things over
hannah says:
well i really have to go now
hannah says:
my bro wants on
SILENT says:
ohk well ill talk to soon probably
SILENT says:
well night
hannah says:
ok
hannah says:
hey wats ur number again i want to call u sometime
SILENT says:
(907)486-0318
hannah says:
ok thanks
hannah says:
night night
hannah says:
and thanks
hannah says:
for talkin to me
hannah says:
hannah says:
i really do appreciate it
SILENT says:
no prob wat are friends for
hannah says:
ok night night see ya
SILENT says:
alright nites for no
SILENT says:
w
SILENT says:
c-ya
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gosh this all had to happen right before i go back too! now i dont know how im gonna act around him and im so excited happy and nervous at the same time. sigh o well like i said…wat happens happens.