thoughtful night

my horoscope for today:If there was ever a day to call or visit your very oldest relative and ask them all about how things were when they were young, by golly, today is the day to do it. What are you waiting for?

well, i didnt call a relative, but i did call jason! i talk to him about 2 or 3 times a year just to see how hes doing and whats goin on in his life. so yea we had a nice long convorsation. ^_^ i remember one time we talked for 8 hours! haha ok well ya.

heres my love horoscope for today:
Unfortunately, there aren’t any seatbelts when it comes to romance, so just hold on and take a chance. This is your chance to throw caution to the wind and just take the plunge

well, ok…theres this guy named ben. my friends tried hookin us up a while back and i decided id hang out with him and her and his friend (which my friend was goin out with at the time) so it was her and bens friend and ben and i. ben seemed to be very shy and quiet around me, and it kinda made me feel awkward. i got along much better with brendan because he talked haha. of course i didnt like brendan and he was my friends boyfriend, but i kinda decided maybe ben wasnt my type. i wasnt attracted to him at all anyway. well time passed and he didnt call or anything, and then once in a while id get a note from him on myspace or something giving me a comment on my pics or wondering how i was doing. i heard a lot about him from cara and ali and what i heard didnt sound like the ben i met. the ben they described was loud and outgoing and silly! i took a long look at the pics on his profile and i really was turned on by how cute his pics were with his kitties!  i started to wonder if maybe i didnt leave enough time to really get to know him and even though im not attracted to him physically, theres just something about him that intrigues me. something that tells me i might find something there if i just took a chance to get to know him and ask him on a date………so yea i just might, but i dont want to get his hopes up and hurt him if i dont end up liking him…..so i dont really know what to do! any way today was relaxing. such a beautiful day. we’ve finally been having some nice days lately! jen and i went kiyacking, then we just hung out in our bathingsuits all day. mike has been hanging with us for like the last 4 days! hes spent the night here too haha. its so nice to have a guy around again. a guy who can actually be my good friend and who cares about me like a friend that i can talk to and hang with. he makes me feel like i hhave another adriel or wayne nearby, like im more at home again. hmmm well the baby birds in the nest outside finally hatched! they are so teeny tiny and they are so cute! right now im talkin to adriel online and he has this really cute pic of him and ang as cartoons on his icon pic haha. so cute! his sn is FAIRBANK BLOWS so im guessin hes missin kodiak and everyone , especially angela, very much. poor guy 🙁 well its my job to cheer him up! gosh hes so lucky to find someone to care about so fast. im not so lucky. i guess my standards are too high or maybe i repel boys. i dunno. i dunno whats wrong with me lol. maybe nothing but i wish i could find someone as easy as he can.
lucky guy. anyway im gonna finish this up. tomorrow i go to orientation for olympic college , the next day i take my drive test, and then work at the mariners game, friday is my moms birthday, and saturday i work at the motley crew concert. lots to look forward to! ok goodnight ppls
hanny