surprise surprise!

sooooo i got a few messages from people whom i havent seen or spoken too in a long ass time! but the one i was most surprised by was a message from tony…..the first apology message he sent me a long time ago, made me at least have some respect towards him, but he proved his apology not to be sincere when he went ahead and made emediate assumptions and conclusions about me that were completely true and said some pretty horrible things. so then that was just it and ive had anger towars him ever since. until now…. when he sent me this.

Hey hannah,

It’s been awhile hasn’t it? I’ve been living with someone for quite some time now. We’ve been together for 18 months almost. I’ve learned alot about myself. My boundaries, habits, you know, "little things." Trust me, it’s a difficult thing to do, getting used to your partners "ways," but the knowledge you get is very valuable. You take alot of time to reflect upon yourself and i’ve done plenty of that. I needed to change some things here and there for the sake of the relationship but mostly for myself. When i was in kodiak, i never realized how closed off i was to other people. Yeah sure i was humorous, but i never really let people get too close, and when they did, i’d push them away. Maybe cuase my dad was kinda like that and maybe it rubbed off on me. You and i, we’re not perfect. No one is really. But when i look back on it now, i should’ve been better to you, you are one of the few people in my life that was really nice to me. We both did dumb things 2 years ago, but it’s all about learning from your mistakes. I KNOW i have, and it was really hard to alter my beliefs. But i feel alot better, i’m MUCH much happier, i’m a different person. People tell me that all the time. I run into people from high school and they tell me i changed alot. I’m really proud of that. One of the reasons i’ve changeed was becuase of you, believe it or not. The way our relationship ended up was a reminder of things for me not to do. Hannah, you have a beautiful family. Your dad is a one-in-a-million guy. I really grew fond of your poppa. I still feel that he should be a disck jockey. Or better yet, a movie trailer announcer guy (he’s got the voice for it.) I know my stay their was a bit unpleasant, and looking back, i’m ashamed of my behavior cuase………that’s not how i am at all. The reason for this message is to simply tell you that i’m sorry. I can understand if you dont reply, i really do understand. You dont have to write back if you dont want to. You got a great family. Hannah you’re a great girl. Got alot of respect for ya and i shouldn’t have behaved the way i did. I hope you do great things and i hope you find it to forgive me. Take care banana

it  takes a lot of dignity for a man to put away his pride and apologize, not only apologize AGAIN but to actually say that they were wrong. how can i stay mad at that? also, when i thought about it, if someone treats me badly or does something horrible to me or my friends, thats the image i have of them in my mind unless they say something or do something to show that they truly have changed. in this case, that is what tony did. he was truly sorry, and it was about time that i let go of all that negative energy that ive darted towards him for so long. plus, before the unpleasantness of when he came to see me here in washington, the years before that when we used to talk on the phone, and when we hung out in kodiak, were so much fun and i really enjoyed his company, and missed when we were friends back then. so i called him up and we talked like nothing had ever happened. it was really nice to know that we can start over as friends.
Hannah