so!

everything is fine with trevor and i now.  he understands my point of view a lot better now and realizes that by asking me all the time for things that i could not give him and by pushing me (but now knowing it or meaning to)  in those ways, it made me feel further and further from him then closer because i felt guilty and bad all the time for not being someone who could give him all those things, and its never good to feel bad in a relationship  more often then good, and after realizing that this almost lead to our breakup, i think he realized what was more important. our relationship! so hopefully we just grow stronger ^_^ he knows that i dont feel the same way i did about someone else in the past because it will take time (and we just started building our history) and he understands that i cant love him the way that he wants to be loved, but hes willing to wait and see how things work. i really hope they do! i already feel closer to him without all the fear of him leaving me or the guilt that he deserved someone who could give him the kind of love that i cant yet. we are on the same page right now. i mean, yes his feelings are stronger than mine, but we are on the same page when it comes to understanding. so im happy ^_^ well, off to do homework!
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