sigh

horoscope for capricorn:
Take a deep breath when you get up in the morning — it may be hard for you to do so later on! People are incredibly demanding and while you can take care of their needs, it will wear you out.

well that def relates to me somewhat. lately ive felt that people feel i dont care because i havent called them or talked to them or hung out with them in so long and i know how that is frustrating but i just havent had the energy lately to make the effort. id go to work and get home late and at that time i just want to wind down and relax, not call someone im sorry, im trying to go to bed earlier these days because i can feel and see the toll its taking on my body the way ive been staying up too late so many nights.

i love my friends and they are always in my thoughts, but this is just a time where im busy and sometimes i just dont feel im up for calling anyone. i just dont want my friends to think im ignoring them or something. sigh.

this weekend i busted my butt off at work! friday was a set, sat was a parent child golf tournament for over 190 people that lasted forever! i mean i was there at 4 and got off at 10:45. thing is, the golfers always eat A LOT, but usually the tournament dinners we serve are for about 60 adults. this time it was more than 3 times that! so we went through all of the kitchens dinner plates, had to rewash them and set them out again! i mean wow, between refreshing the buffet, watering, and bussing, we were on our feet power walking the entire time. and then sunday was another long event accept it was way easier because there was only dessert being eaten. but still we didnt get home till after 10 and i was sooooo tired.

then last night i couldnt sleep a wink for some reason which was very frustrating for me. i finally got some shut eye around 8am and my mom woke me up around 4 so that i would be able to go to bed at a decent hour. i felt like shit though all day. my hair was greasy, my skin was breaking out, and i had a really bad headache. i just didnt care. i didnt go anywhere either. just sat around all day. and i cheated and ate tilamook mudslide ice cream. i needed it. gar. well i hope i get some sleep tonight because tomorrow morning is my gynecologist apointment and then im going to the gym. i hope i feel better than i did today. 😛 hmm i think i’ll go find a book to read, and drink some tea, that should calm me.