SHOPPING!+adriels confusing

ok this morning i had so much on my mind! of course adriel but also imta(international modeling and talent academy). this sunday i have to perform my monologue,commercial,sitcom,song,and soap in front of judges! ne ways i got up early cus i had a doctors apointment in tacoma and my mom was taking me there. we were also gonna do some shopping or imta! i had a list of the clothes they wanted me to wear and the makeup they wanted me to have. the reason i had to go to the doctors was i got this cold but it never really went away.i had the sniffles and a couph for 3 weeks! my throat was sooo sore too :-S. so ne ways the doctor checked my throat and nose out and then she told me the reason my cold hadnt gone away yet. i was elergic to somethin! she dint know yet and i dont know either but she asked me some questions and i told her it couldnt be cats or dogs or birds cus ive been livin with them my whole life practically and finally she said maybe it was somethin in the air or just around this area that i wasnt used to from kodiak alaska and thats y im alergic. so she gave my my prescription and i was about to walk out the door when my mom said”hannah where are u goin? u need to get ur blood drawn just to make sure u have enough nutrients in ur body” i was stunned. blood drawn? a needle? in my arm? AHHHHHH!! i wanted to run out of there as fast as i could but the doctor plopped me down,put the alcahol pad on my arm and before i knew it the needle was in and the whole thing was over. it dint hurt at all but it made me nautious just seein all of MY blood goin through this tube into a container. MY BLOOD! yuck. ne ways we left and went to j-cpenny at the tacoma mall and i took out my lists. we headed for the makeup first.

The ladies at the makeup place took the list,plopped me down in a chair and kept piling all this stuff in front of me and kept discussin to themselves sayin stuff like”hmm this color looks right for her, what kind of complexion do u think she has?” “maybe this pink should do the trick, or the peach” “do u like this one? or how about this one?” soon i had everything picked out FINALLY and we headed for the clothes. i had to pick out some plain stuff(cus thats what imta wanted)no shirts with ne thing sparkly, words, or pictures. they dint want ne thing that would distract someones eyes to ur clothes instead of ur face on camera. so i got some plain shirts and some nice skirts and we left for my voice lesson. it was 3 o clock and i was exausted. all i wanted to do was go home(plus i was excited cus i wanted to ask if adriel called for me)wen i got home adriel hadnt called but courtney called sayin he wanted me to go online YAY! so i got on the comp thinkin maybe he wanted to discuss u know what(about the convo from yesterday)about a relationship,but he acted like he dint even like me and that nothin ever happned.he barely talked too and i dint know wat to say so he just went offline. i felt sad 🙁 ne ways later on i called him and he dint talk then either. wel not much, we did talk about wat we were gonna do wen i got to kodiak tho. i told him i had to make time to be with wayne once tho cus i had to see him before i left(wayns a friend who doesnt like adriel and my othe friends) and adriel was like “fine!i actually need a day away from u cus me and amanda planned to walk from town all the way to the airport and back.” i felt kinda sad cus he dint act like he liked me at all and it seemed like he REALLY wanted to do that with her THEN (i dont see y he could do it after i left)and it was probly the last time id be in kodiak too :(.but i just shrugged if off and thought”no biggy, if he wants to spend all day with her thats fine,and hes not actin like he likes me unless hes hiding it so i guess nothin will happen between us this summer”which made me more sad just to think of it. i just replied”oh well have fun! its gonna be an all day thing tho and im only gonna be with wayne for an hour or sometin so ill just hang wiht other ppl while ur gone” and that was that. he dint even talk afer that and i felt bored and weird talkin to him. finally he just said he had to go and we said bye. i think i wont talk to him until i see him on monday unless he comes online cus its to weird. hes so confusing and since i cant open up i wish he would open up and talk to me about us. but i guess that will never happen cus every time he has ive run away and i feel bad for it now. especially when he got all his courage together to do it. well gotta go. byebye

~Hannah