random thoughts

I seem to be feeling like i never have any energy. like i dont feel like being around people, going out or doing anything, or even calling friends….i feel worn out and drained all the time and i shouldnt…..i mean im eating healthy, just not excercising, but i know that im anemic…i just didnt think it was that big of a deal so i never took iron. but maybe that could be it. i dont know. today all i did was watch tv. i didnt get dressed and i didnt put on makeup. and i felt guilty about it because i knew there were so many things i could be doing that are productive and that i need to do, but i had no motivation whatsoever. sigh. i think maybe if i write everything down in a planner i wont be thinking about it so much and then i will be less stressed. one thing at a time. i need to keep telling myself that. sigh. tomorrow my mom is leaving to go see my sister and help her get her licence and such. im glad shes going because rachel needs our support and its hard being out there by herself making these first big steps. i dont know what ill do when im someday thousands of miles away from my family for the first time. thats scary! any who i think my mom will be there till the end of the month or something like that. im not sure. well i best be gettin to bed. i think maybe if i start going to be earlier and getting up earlier then ill feel a lot better.

night