poor trevor *sigh*

well, whoever really knows me KNOWS that im really against smoking. i have always said "i aint kissin no ash tray!" and alas trevor was a smoker, but his long time goal has been to quit. he knew that it was a bad habit and a turn off for me as well, and so, starting 2 days ago, he put down his last cigarette. i told him before that i didnt care how long it took, that he could even brush his teeth afterwards and just never smoke around me, but if he was going to stop he had to stop becausee HE wanted to for himself, not just because of me. and he had been wanting to quit anyways, so yea. well poor trevor, after the first day of no smoking his hands started to sweat and he was all twitchy. i hung out with him all day and gave him gum and altoids to distract him lol. today however he started feeling sick, having hot and cold flashes, and got a really high fever. i  just got back from being over there actually, poor guy. i made him some tea, got him a blanket and gave him a massage. he kept saying " im sorry you gotta deal with me being all irritable and sick, dont worry ill be better soon" and i said " oh shush trevor, im proud of you and i dont care if you are irritable or not feeling good, because i know that quitting must be hard to do. and that is not something I have to DEAL with." *sigh* i feel bad for him, but i am proud of him. trevor is the kind of guy whos actions follow his words. if he says he is going to do something, he does it, and thats that. thats also how i know he is honest. im really beginning to trust him. its been hard to trust any men for a long while. well, i just hope he sleeps well tonight and is a little better tomorrow.