lately

my horoscope for today
No matter how mucky a situation gets, you can see straight to the core and figure it out. Even if you feel like you’re having anxiety attacks, today you’ll be as objective as a physicist. Your hopefulness will dominate.

well, yes there are situations but heres the thing, i can see right to the core of things for other peoples problems, but when it comes to mine i have no clue what to do! grr. sigh. anyway yea heres my singles love horoscope for today

Today’s the day you can finally make a decision. Your friends wouldn’t point you in the wrong direction. Now all you can do is hope. It’s a giddy sort of hope

um…..what decision? decision about what? OOOH THAT DECISION! nope havent decided yet.

ok so lately………this is whats been goin on. i met a guy named josh who is really cute, super duper smart in programming and computers, and has a super nice car and house and what not. we ate subway, went to his house, and had fun. EW YOU PERVERTS NOT THAT KINDA FUN! gosh. you know like playing pool and yhatzee and what not? gees. haha and well about 2 weeks ago, or something close to that, i asked ben out on a date and we didnt go on it till today because we both have been busy. so yea, i dont have feelings for ben, but there was just something about him that attracted me to him. maybe because i wanted to find out the him that everyone else talks about. the loud, confident, funny ben instead of the quiet shy one i remembered. so yea i decided id try again. same kinda thing though with josh. quietness turns me off, i cant help it im sorry guys. i like loudness and talkkativeness! but i realize that sometimes its harder for guys to be themselves in front of some ppl or something. so i should take a little more time to make decisions about people. really. ben is so…….not obvious haha. he was so calm and cool about me askin him on a date when i was all like "what am i doing?" and hes just like yea ok thats cool. sure. and when im with him i cant even tell if hes attracted to me or what hes thinkin and he doesnt even say " so are we going on a second date?" it was just kinda like….hanging out, no awkwardness, no weird feelings, just fun, cool, hanging out. i kinda liked it. some people get nervous at the word DATE like me, but i realize that its just a different title of hanging out really. when you hang out you do something with that person and get to know them. same as dating. i guess asking someone on a date though is clueing them in that you are interested in being more than friends. but really, its nice to be friends first. i dunno. so i guess what im gonna have to do is hang out with both of these guys, and see what happens. i might not like either one of them, or i might like one. GAH i hate this. i have so many other things i need to be focusing on, i dont know why i started getting mixed up in this. josh i know you are reading this you poop head. you wanted to see my thoughts so here they are.