just blah
well like i said my life is having this pattern where i do the same thing every day (sigh)nothin exciting happens EVER. i need some twists and turns here and there in my life! well i guess its kinda good cus instead of always being up and about its good to take soem time to settle down and just think. i actually learned while ive been in washington how to have fun with myself 🙂 even sometimes i have fun just running into my room,jumping onto my bed,laying down, and just thinking for hours on end. just about everything. i know i told myself id kinda try to get the memories of the past out of my life here in washington cus it just makes me wish i was in kodiak, but now that i just think back to all those good times it makes me smile 🙂 and i dont smile much these days so at least i have the memories to keep my spirits up. right now im just listening to avril lavigne and for some reason most of her songs remind me of me sooo much and wenever i listen to her music it just makes me think so much hehe. i dunno some music just connects with me or somethin. hmmm ok well anough of me being stupid and just sayin nothin interesting 😛 like the title is (just blah)
well ne ways homecoming is coming up. and i dont intend to go. i mean i dunno theres so many ppl and most of my friends know guys at the highschool so their gonna have dates and i dunno i wont know alot of ppl there. i mean yea i met this guy marc but he doesnt know me anough yet to even think about asking. but even if he did i think ill have a better time at home with a bunch of movies and a big bowl of kettle corn 🙂 yup ill have a jolly good time. (sigh) well yea u can tell im kinda lonely these days. i dont wanna be but i just am. i mean not from friends…from like i dunno. i always see these cute couples go around kissing and holding hands and stuff and it just makes me wish i had someone to do that to me. but another part of me just knows im not ready so i dunno. lol well im just gonna sit and listen to good charlotte and avril lavigne now. chow!
Hannah Banana