just another day

today i didnt work, so i cleaned my room, cleaned up the kitchen a bit, finished my resume, and went to the gym.

Funny, while I was at the gym I noticed a cute guy and he smiled at me. I quickly turned away because well…i’m shy like that. To my surprise he strolled right over and sat down right next to me on the matt where i was stretching! I scooted over a bit saying "oh sorry i’ll make some room" since there were people on either side of us. and he said "oh no its cool i dont think ill be taking up that much space!" and smiled again. I smiled and looked down as I went back to grabbing my ankles with my fingers.

"im winning" I heard him say

I looked over at him "um what?"

he said "with stretching, im going farther so im winning! Everything in life is a competition."

with that I reached my hands over my toes and half way to the middle of my feet. "can you do that?"

he couldn’t and said "ah ok you win!"

we exchanged a few more words and then there was awkward silence…I didn’t know what to say! I’m not used to men just…randomly flirting with me….it makes me nervous! i don’t know how to flirt, and when i try…well…it’s just embarrassing….it doesn’t feel normal to me…I’d rather just have good convorsation 🙂
 anyway….I didn’t really feel like fueling his motive…. he was definitely attractive, and seemed funny, and nice :-), but for some reason i just knew that he wasn’t a guy i wanted to get involved with…i just have a feeling on these things…

all of a sudden he was up and leaving "well thanks for the chit chat! see ya around!"  hmmm…could he read my mind? *shrugs*  I wonder what made him come over….I wish that happened more often.  Oh wells!

Tonight I was supposed to have play rehearsal but they aren’t getting around to practicing the girlfriend partsfor a while…and so far the only thing we have to learn is a small tap dance and a song….plus…the other girlfriends haven’t been to every reahearsal. so when i found out that one of them wasn’t going to be there i figured it wasn’t worth it because when i go im usually filling in for a husband or someone else who isn’t there that day  instead of practicing my part. any who one night won’t hurt. i have to ask the girls what time we are meeting on saturday or sunday.

ugh i feel so guilty….i ate ice cream yesterday, and again tonight….i keep telling myself over and over that im not going to eat any sugar until christmas but so far that isn’t working out! 😛

going to the gym is no good if i keep eating like this. that whole workout was for nothing! gar. i have no self control lol.

im getting more nervous every day because saturday is getting closer and closer…..that’s when im having my bartending test. mccormick woods bartender todd is going to watch me and make sure i know what i’m doing. i have such bad test anxiety it’s not even funny! i mean i know what im doing when im on my own but to have someone watch over my shoulder!??? EEK! but I HAVE to do good! I really really want to be a bartender there and so I need to show them I can do this! THIS IS IT FINALLY! *sigh* I cannot fail. ALright back to studying.