i think too much

my horoscopes for yesterday and today:

reg horoscope for 10/15 :Suddenly you get a glimpse of the big picture beyond school, work , family and friends. Could it be that there’s even more out there? Yep — a great big world (and more than that, too).

singles love horoscope for 10/15 : Torn between a free-to-be-you-and-me mode and a more responsible, serious one? Why not let the former win out? There’s plenty of time to take care of business later — right now, have some fun.

todays red horoscope:Is there enough gas in the car? Did you spell-check your book report? Is your hair okay? Hey, there are a million things you could worry about, but it won’t do any good. Relax.

todays singles love horoscope: Your regular routine feels safe and secure, and anyone trying to rattle your cage might throw you for a loop. Stay in your comfort zone, but don’t rule anything out — give them a rain check instead

ok , my first one for yesterday is like dead on. i mean, i think about that all the time since ive graduated! i realize how different my life has become in just a matter of going from highschool to college. it just makes me wonder how different it will be after college, and then how much will it change once im married? it seems like when we are young our motives are to learn about people, places, and things and to pretty much focus on have as much fun as possible, then once we get out of highschool our focus is money and work and getting together what we need for our future careers. some of us already have carreers by then. and im thinkin after college there are 2 types of people. the kind to settle down right away with their lifetime career choice and start a family as soon as  possible, and the type to go see the world and try many different careers and experience as much as they can. they are kind of wild people you might say. but i bet you that most of those wild people can be independent and travel and try everything, because they dont have anything else to focus on but themselves. meanin mostly they are single. people who are ready to settle down are usually in love or getting ready to be engaged. one a person finds the one they truly love, they no longer think of only themselves, all they can think about is how happy they will be as long as they are with that person. I am definately a wild girl, and i am most likely goin to travel around, see the world, experience what i can experience, etc…but if i was in love right now with a man who loved me back, i would no longer care about going off on my adventures. my dream would be him, and his i, and we would decided together right then if we wanted to be wild together or settle down together. as long as it would be together. yea id put love over everything. it really changes peoples lives. just like in friends! Rachel could of moved to france, but she was in love with Ross, so she could not stay on that plane.  sigh. but a las, i wont be that girl with someone hoping for me to get off that plane. there will be nothing holding me back. and so off i will fly!

the last horoscope really describes me. yes, my routine makes me feel safe and secure, and whenever a guy comes along to rattle it, it rattles me! i dont know if its good or bad and it freaks me out. im pretty good at keepin in my comfort zone but i dont know if im good at not ruling anything out. i dont like giving guys rain checks, its not honest!

so yea, yesterday i was hung over all day, it was miserable. Im not drinkin for another long period. i guess it depends on who you are with when you drink, or in my case, how much you drink, whether or not you have a good time. i ended up havin cara pull her car over so i could throw up the 5 dollar chocolate peanutbutter mouse torte i had eaten minutes before.  she said "wow, you paid 5 bucks for a pile of throwup" i said "actually no, i got a good deal! i paid for the exsquisite taste of the chocolate peanutbutter torte and it ended up being fat free!" haha.  of course i felt like a bolimic sayin that, but that would never happen. so yea my head f elt like it would split in two so megan called my parents to come get me, and my car, because i was too sick to drive home. ugh i was miserable. my mom massaged my head when we got home and surprisingly, the headache dissappeared! its just something about a mothers love. 🙂 i love you mommy! so yea then i went to bed and woke up this morning at 7am feelings awake, rested, and refreshed! i went to work from 8am -4pm (my regular sunday shift) came home, and relaxed. i feel i need a lot of relaxation now days. i have so much on my mind its not even funny. i need to start taking my stratera so i wont feel so stressed and my hair will stop falling out !  i have to study spanish, when is  a good time for my chiropractic apointment? damn it i missed my orthadontist apointment! ugh, i owe my parents 345 dollars for fixing the breaks and that belt thingy, i have to deposit my check, damnit the bank is closed early, (next day) damnit its closed on sundays i forgot, DAMN IT i burnt myself with hot water at work AGAIN. oh no i forgot to do my laundry, im borrowing megans clothes again, GOSH IM A WRECK. see how jumbled my mind is? im goin crazy. i dont know how parents do it. if i had kids right now, and i was working and i was goin to college….ok no that would never happen *smacks herself in the head* but still, if that happened, id be nuts. women who do that should just quit something because if they dont they will end up killing their kids, or their boss, or their professor. *shrugs* okies well goodnight everyone. i have to get up at 6am 😛
hannah

at work AGAIN. oh no i forgot to do my laundry, im borrowing megans clothes again, GOSH IM A WRECK. see how jumbled my mind is? im goin crazy. i dont know how parents do it. if i had kids right now, and i was working and i was goin to college….ok no that would never happen *smacks herself in the head* but still, if that happened, id be nuts. women who do that should just quit something because if they dont they will end up killing their kids, or their boss, or their professor. *shrugs* okies well goodnight everyone. i have to get up at 6am 😛
hannah