i know the truth finally.
a year ago my friend robe had a bad reputation of leadin gurls on to make them think he liked them. he would flirt with one then go on to another. he even told me he wanted gurls to like him. well i never thought adriel would be like that. but i realize that he if he thinks a gurl likes him at all he flirts with them and leads them on even if he doesnt mean to. i liked him ever since i met him and he never liked me until after i moved (at least i thought) now he says hes over me but he knows i still like him (i dont know how he knows tho) but hes been sayin all this sweet shit to me that made me think he still liked me but now i know the truth and im not gonna take that sweet crap ne more. i told him today i dint want to hear it. now im thinkin that everything he said before, after the summer, the poem, everything was a lie. he never meant ne of it, he was only sayin he liked me cus he dint want me to like someone else like keith! he was just jealous. well im not gonna let him play with me ne longer. im better then that. i used to think he was better than that too. i tell myself i need time away from him, i need a couple months wiht him out of my life so i can focus on moving on. but i cant, cus if i start avoiding him he just calls up and asks me y i havent been online and if i hang up on him then he wil keep callin askin wats wrong and y i hate him and all this shit so its impossible to escape him. yea sure i want to be his friend. but every time i talk to him he says somethin nice or sweet that brings back memories and stuff and makes me like him even more. well i dont want that. i want him to be just a friend that doesnt flirt or say sweet things cus i dont want to like him ne more. i used to think he was the one for me, but i guess ppl come into ur life, and then they go out. i have to move on and thats it. i cant just keep runnin back to my feelings for him cus im wastin my life hoping he still cares when he doesnt. right now hes leadin sydney on too, he freak dances with her and is all over her at the dances and now shes totally in love with him but he doesnt like her(he told me) but he still gave her a note in her online diary sayin"hey sydney ur gonna dance with me at the dance right?" HES LEADIN HER ON! shes gonna ge hurt like me 🙁 all he wants is for gurls to like him. hes just another robe. hes not the adriel i love or maybe now loved. i have to move on and i know its gonna be hard but i have to. im gonna go back to kodiak but not for him. just for everyone. he doesnt care ne ways. and if he tries NE THING im gonna back off cus im not foolin around with a guy who just likes to lead gurls on.
well thats all for now
Hannah Banana