hmm ive got stalkers

so yea, i went to a party on friday night that was sooo bomb. and there were so many yummy guys! lol any who i talked to this one guy who looked like this guy that used to be on the show one tree hill (the brown guy that used to be a power ranger) any who he looked like him, and he was hott! we talked for like over an hour and of course i was drunk so i was flirtin and complimenting him and pinchin his cheeks and puttin my arm around him and givin him the sexy look while twirling my hair with one finger and holding my glass in the other. yea you get the picture haha. what a dork. but anyways, i could have made out with him, but i didnt cus i dont go making out with random ppl i dont know, but i could have but i figured id never see him  again anyways. when he left i couldnt even remember his name for the life of me! well, i guess i mentioned that i had myspace because the very next day when i got home there was a message from someone named matt who said he enjoyed talking to me at the party and he gave me his e-mail. now , this person didnt have a picture but after some thought i realized who it was! lol and then i looked at his profile and it turns out that he had just made it, no friends, no pics nothing, he just made it to find me! lol…hmm…cute…or creepy? i cant really decide. a little of both i guess….but im not lookin for a boyfriend right now which i made quite clear at the party. so i dunno. but hes not keepin his myspace, not that kinda guy i guess.

ok, now for stalker number 2! this guy sam, also 24, oh i guess i didnt mention that matt is 24 haha any who, sam, he works at the les schwab in town and last winter i went to get a flat fixed and he asked me out! very shy quite guy with glasses, barely said a word to me and mumbled a lot until i left, but sweet. of course i was pretty darn deep into a relationship with trevor at the time (which i was looking to get out of) and also i wasnt lookin to jump into a new one either, which is also my current predicament (except for the trevor part, ill get to that status another time) but yea, so i politely said it was nice of him to ask but i was already seeing someone. well, here and there id stop in, once to get new tires, another because my tire went flat AGAIN and another to get my tires rotated. now , a year later….i get this message from a guy named sam on myspace just sayin "hey hows it goin? what are you doing up so late?" and i look at his picture and sure enough its that guy from les schwab! lol wow. and i knew he knew who i was so yea….kinda weird that he tracked me down…..lol

i dont know what it is lately…my change in fashion? have my boobs gotten bigger? i dont know but men seem to be drawn to me like flies! im not being conseited or egotistic by no means, but thats just how it seems, and its not always a good thing. i look at myself in the mirror and i guess i do see more of a woman these days. even from 2 years ago i look at picturese and i  see a girl, and now i see a woman. its funny how i dont even wear t-shirts with images and graphics anymore, or pink things, or furry things. im more into pencil skirts, high heels, scarves, high collared coats, fancy boots, beret hats, i dont even recognize the change until i notice all the things i dont wear anymore that i used to love and i catch myself looking in the misses sizes in stores instead of juniors. wow. and then there are all these young 16 and 17 year old boys that look so yummy until i realize how old they are haha. and im like WHOAH IM TOO OLD FOR THEM ALREADY? and only 3 more months till im 21….i used  to think that 21 was such an important age, i was inspired and in awe of all women who were 21 and felt that they were so important, of course that was like when i was 16 or 17. and i couldnt wait to be 21! and yea, girls change every few years or so, but i feel like somewhere between the ages of 15-18 we kind of find who we are and stick to it, and dont change much after that. i mean you know, everyone changes,but  we are still ourselves. thats what i mean. we find ourselves. so i look back to when was 18 and yes i have changed, but not like a major change or anything.
when i was younger and goin to my first parties, all the older girls who were 20-21 would be acting like "omg what are all these young kids doing here? ugh. we are so much more mature then them." and now im almost 21 and i know they were bullshitters. because the only difference between me and them was the age. now when i party with girls who are younger they are like "wow you dont seem like you are 20" and my reply? i just say "thats because im comfortable with who i am, and just because im way older than  you doesnt mean i have to suddenly put my old lady mask on, and its rediculous to think you are better than someone or you cannot talk or hang with someone just because you are older than them" 

seriously, some girls need to get over themselves! i think some parents get that idea as well and never let go of it. hmm. interesting concept dontcha think? well ill stop writing for now. im out
hanny