halloween party, ali, tony!

My horoscope for today! Don’t expect to be a well of willpower. If someone tries to tempt you into straying from being your ordinarily disciplined self — well, let’s just say it won’t take much. Don’t beat yourself up. It’s your turn.Hmmmmmm, well, ive always felt that ive had a strong will power, and i still do feel that way. i wont do anything i dont want to do. If i wanna try something new then yea, if i wanna i will. but nobody cant tempt me. im untemptable! i hope….. i better knock on wood, this horoscopes scurring me! heres my love scope for today:  Got too many options? Now is the time to pare them down — preferably to just one. Your single-minded focus will help you go where you need to be
Wow, um haha *cough cough* i wish i had many options. whatever happens happens, i cant really decide on who i may meet or who i will end up with.NE WHO! yesterday was great! sooooooo awesome! My friends came over right after school and helped me decorate and get everything ready till 6:00pm. Then we got into our costumes! Cara and I were french maids! Hers was different from mine but we both looked really sexy lol. i’ve never worn anything so daring! I felt ok cus i had these big silk black granny panties underneath in case ppl saw, so it wasnt bad. just like a cheerleading costume. except it was a short black puffy dres with a white apron, and fishnet stockings. I also had a white garder on my thigh  and high heeled black shoes , along with my duster and hair clip! Megan and Jen wer naughty school girls! They wore tank tops with white shirts tied up over it, and they had crimped hair and knee high socks with mary janes! They looked 2 hott! I invited 40 ppl but only 15 came cus many ppl went to the football game instead (LAME-O!) and lots of ppl came later, but they missed the DJ! YEA! we had  a DJ come from 9-11pm! We danced so much! The guys were doing the worm, and sea walking and all this cool stuff, and sean was bustin out with his moves! When i dance, like really dance, i get like a natural high. I dont care what ppl think or what im doin and i go nuts! When i get all hyped up thats when i dance the best, and man did i dance! Only my friends here have seen me dance like that, shaking everything and dropping it like its hott. If ppl in kodiak saw me dancing like that, they would think i was a slut. it was like i was in a club lol. I loved it! all my friends were dancing, everyone was dancing, the room was hot , sweat was dripping, the strobe lights flashin, ppl playin pool and watchin movies in the wreck room, the music loud, it was just really cool. I swear, nobody in wasghington had their house decked out in decorations like i did. Our house is the bomb! im kinda sad cus since this is my senior year, this is the 4th and last annual halloween party. the end of the tradition since 9th grade. This was the funnest of all of them so far! ppl left around 1:30 am. AND OMG, ali has found herself a man! we called him her “friend” but we all know she likes him. they were joined at the hip! cuddling, holding hands, it was really cute. im so happy for her! she was all sad thinkin she wouldnt find someone till college. i mean hey this might not work out for her, or it might, but shes young and should date as much as she pleases. shouldnt get stuck on one guy and let teh world pass by you. you gotta move on! you never know who you will end up with so its better not to be close minded. Ali was hung over midori for a long time. and i could understand that cus they dated for about 2 years. But im happy for her cus she could get passed that and start anew, even though a part of him will always be in her heart. who knows, what if in 10 years they get back together? or end up together again? or she will be with someone completely new! ne who i congradulate her for her strength. I talked to tony the day before yesterday for an hour. Hes so cool. but for some reason its hard for me when guys are open with their feelings right away, they are more approachable if they dont open up until later. but i do know he tells the truth when he talks to me. at least about how he feels about me, but i cant return the same feelings. At least not yet. I have to actually hang out with a guy to like them. talkin to him on the phone and e-mailing is nice, but that only lets me know about him, and how he is. but not really WHO he is. I might see him spring break. I think im gonna try to go to kodiak, or hes gonna try and come here. or maybe ill just see him wehn i go to kodiak during summer *shrugs* but im gonna try :-). ok well gotta go work on homie work!
hanny