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so im feeling really bad because i lost wendys cell phone number so i couldnt call her to tell her happy birthday on the 4th! i couldnt e-mail her either cus she cant recieve e-mails! sigh. ill have to mail a gosh darn letter, and im absolutely terrible and mailing things! sigh. it almost never gets done! but im determined to send her a card! any who its 11:01 here at the spool house and my eyes are gettin a little sleepy. i have a presentation to do tomorrow with my group on the  country of kyrgyzstan. i am not very good at talking in front of people but i will do the best i can! sigh. any who i am very pleased so far with the pictures from tuesdays photo shoot! i pretty much loved them all! here is my best shot!

well , of the ones he sent me through e-mail. the others will come on a cd in about a week or so. but yea not bad eh? so same old same old adriel and i barely talk now. i never know whats goin on in his life. i am positive now that im not really a part of his life anymore and hes not a part of mine. i dont even know what keeps us holding on to our last string of connection to even keep in contact with eachother at all. theres nothing there anymore. theres nothing to share, nothing to give, nothing new to know. just the knowing of what once was and knowing we cant get it back. life happens when you’re busy making plans. i miss the good ol days tho. theres nothing more that i would like more than to have all the people i love surrounding me in all smiles and laughter and everyone having a good time. it seems like these days all the time i have is for myself. all i can think about is money, work, career, my future, and school, and my relationship of course. i wish i could get away. i wish right now that i was on a small isand where nobody knew i was gone and nobody cared how long i was gone and i could just stop time and relax for as long as i wanted underneath a pom tree with my faveorite book. ahhh………..at least i will have good dreams tonight ^_^