adriel :-) *sigh*

lets see if u can read through this whole entry lol….

hello ppl, right now its 3:00am(i stay up really early sometimes on weekends) and i just finished talkin to my freind jordan,but earlier i was talkin to Adriel and he was being sooooo sweet! i mean usually he hasnt been like that, he just acts regular and talks about his plans or somethin or he just doesnt talk that much at all. But earlier wen i was talkin to him we were talkin about the memories we had together before i moved and i was laughin so hard i almost fell off the chair. then he said

"i remember ur voice" and i was kinda confused so i replied

"uh but u know what i sound like silly!"

then he told me "yea but i mean i was just thinkin about ur voice like on the phone wen i talk to u. the way it is wen u laugh or when ur happy. and how cute ur voice is when u sound annoyed or bothered. and the times when u sound sad….etc"

i couldnt help from blushing it was so nice.

and i was smiling 🙂 gosh he always knows how to make me smile….and the funny thing is whenever he does he always says"i know ur smiling. i just know u are admit it" and its so cute cus it seems like he can actually sense me or somethin. i dunno. i just cant wait to see him again. well ppl who have been readin my diary are probly wonderin "ok are these 2 ppl goin out? or what? and then y does she say shes single?"

well ill give u a summary of our story.

i was this really quiet shy independent gurl in 7th grade who dint talk to ne one but i was still nice and i was freinds with all the popular ppl.i just dint like hangin with the groups and no matter how many ppl tried dragging me to their groups i just liked to stand alone by the door at recess and work on homie work(my nickname for home work) i was really serious about grades and i was very guy shy. i actually never talked to guys on the phone before ever! Adriel was this really mr bigshot popular guy that every gurl had a crush on. i did too but i knew he would never pay attention to me so i ignored him. Then one day he started talkin to me and stuff and walkin me to my classes (cus he had all the same ones as me) but i never was able to spurt out ne words and even if i did they were mean. he would sit next to me and i would be like ew theres another seat over there go away. and wen he asked me to the dance i was like ugh and i gave him this ugly face look. lol. but none the less at the end of the year he gave me his phone number and told me to call him if i dint see him around. and so i did…..2 weeks later lol i was so scared. soon we started hanging out and i realized how easy it was to be myself around him cus he dint care how i was and i felt more comfortable around him. i started to open up more to ppl and soon i made many more friends than i expected. i no longer stayed away from the groups and i socialized alot. but the best thing that happened was me and adriels freindship. we did everything together, gosh i have so many good memories. one time it was pouring rain outside i mean POURING if u stood out there for a second u would be soaked. and it was really windy too. i was talkin to adriel on the net and i was like "gosh im bored lets go for a walk" and he said"yea!" so i dressed in many layers of clothes and jackets ,grabbed my umbrella and headed out to the meeting spot. when i got there, there was adriel in his little jacket and jeans all soaked down to the bone with his hair all flad on his face. i asked him y he dint wear ne thing warm and he told me he wanted to look good lol. i gave him my unbrella but when he opened it, it blew inside out so we ran into the trees. we ended up sitting there and talking in the rain but it was so cool. i have so many other memories gosh i could go on and on. ne ways i moved and i finally told him how i felt in a letter at the airport. then later during the summer he came to see me for a week with my freind dennis and my friend manda who came from oregon told me that adriel told her he liked me. then when adriel got back to kodiak he told me "u know wat manda said, well its true"yea wat a romantic way to say u like someone huh? then i dunno i told him i liked him and then we dint go out or ne thing but liked eachother. but then he messed around with this one gurl sydney at a party and he flirted with other gurls too and soon i couldnt take it ne longer. i told adriel i couldnt like him ne more and that i wanted to get over him. i told him that i wasnt gonna call him for awhile so i could get over him and that he should pretend like i never liked him and get over me and move on. so yea ever since ive pretended like i dint care ne more but the truth is i still do. my freinds say he still cares about me but im just not sure. he acts like it but i guess i will find out this summer. my freind manda told me he he really loves me but he doesnt want a relationship cus hes afraid i will end up hurting him. and im afraid for that exact reason as well so i dont know where this is gonna lead us. but i just had such a nice convo with him *sigh*

sorry so long,wen i talk about adriel i could go on forever. congrats to whoever actually read the whole thing.