9/30/05

my horoscopes for today!

reg one :If you meet someone new today, or have a longer conversation with someone you’ve always been curious about, be wary. You can let your guard down after a few days, but keep your distance for now. Motivations are unknown.

well, i meet someone knew every day at work! so many creepy guys like to hang around while they drink their coffee to talk to me :P. today at college some creepy guy followed ali and i and preceded to talk to me and ask what my schedule was and stuff, stalker! everyone knows im the most careful, cautious girl they know! especially when it comes to guys. i have trust issues 😛 and i always keep my distance.

my singles love horoscope :
The demands being made on you now are myriad — work, social, family and more. Know when to say when in the realm of romance; no one deserves more from you than you’re willing and able to give.

that is completely true. life has been kind of a routine lately, but its nice to have something to do instead of lay around being bored all the time! i like being busy, i love the feeling of doing things rather than just sitting around. i feel im taking advantage of life more if i’m out and about! i love my job and im enjoying school ^_^. but yea, nobody pushes me, not in anything, especially romance.  I am very protective of myself and i dont like being vulnerable. i find that many guys who meet me are just so anxious that i might become their girlfriend, so they try to impress me and then start telling me how they had a good time and ask if i did too etc….. all i want is a guy to not bow down to me or see me as this girlfriend goal. cant a guy just be my friend and be themselves at first? ugh. some guys just want to rush but i like to take my time, and if they cant go at my pace then they can go on their way. when it comes to romance i want things to go my way because, like i said, i dont like being vulnerable. once i feel something for a guy, then i am, and i have to spend a lot of time with someone before i decide whether its safe or not to put down my force field. *sigh* im probably one of the most frustrating, and honest girls a guy will ever meet. i need someone with patience.

so any who, that day with ryan was great, and i found myself thinking about him and wondering when he was goin to call. then i called him and left a message. he called back but i couldnt answer cus i was at work, so i called back and left another message later……..that was 2 nights ago and he hasnt called. funny i actually was finding myself hoping it was him when the phone rang, but oh wells! i know other guys will pop up out of no where like ryan did. for now i can just say that im glad i had something to add to my non existent romance life haha. it brightened my mood. ^_^. so any whoooo i get  my car tomorrow morning! actually not till like 10:30 because i have to leave at 6:50 and the cars will be here at 7. i get out of school at 9:50. 😛 but im so excited! i still dont have insurance though so i have to look for quotes tomorrow and get that baby registered! man i have so much spanish homework to do. lata peeps.
han