Blog #6

Nothing much happened today. Watched some clips pointing out incorrect techniques in filming and whatnot to be careful of when working a boom mic and other such things. I.e. we basically watched movies and the instructer would point out a lot of mistakes they made. Damn did Terminator has a lot, btw.

Bill and I have been talking about a film contest…we’re going to enter it. We’ve been looking around for friends to get a camera and a tripod and to get everything going and set up. It’ll be cool to have a movie under my belt. I’ll post it here if it ever goes that far (Which, at this point, I believe it will).

Went to another party today. Same people. This time I brought bill to socialize…these guys have a sound studio in one of the rooms and I figured, hey, if we’re going to record for the aformentioned film, lets record with a nice mic and a nice system and get things done. I.e. we’re making friends so HOPEFULLY we can talk them into letting them use their toys. Not to mention they’re cool people; as I’ve said before, I like the lot of them. They’re my classmates and my friends already, hopefully bill’s as well in the future. But potential help of them letting us use the sound system if they know us well is nice too. Mostly things were drunk, shots and some beers and whatnot. I was tempted to drink a lot again, but this time I didn’t. It was almost unnerving how tempting it was. I think that maybe there really IS something in my blood…I fucking craved it. That’s kinda sick. All it took was once…just once and I went into crave mode….when i don’t do that for really much of anything. It’s not a natural mode for me at all. It’s scary on a lot of levels. Damn I’m glad I’m very careful of watching my physical reactions as gauges to my emotions or I probably wouldn’t have caught that at the time and I would’ve been untrue to myself, though I probably (probably?) would have caught myself after the fact if I had. I’m going to have to be fucking careful about drinking, I think…there’s something about it that’s very very dangerous to me. Glad I noticed it now. Nothing that I can’t squealch at this point. But further down the road? Eh. Glad I caught it now. It was a learning experience, at any rate. So yeah. It was fun all the same though. I brought guitar hero and I jammed with some of them, played beer pong with jennifer (without the alcohol) and just chatted around. I even took a 1:30am dip in the pool with a bunch of the rest of the guys in just our boxers, lol. Jen got thrown in, heh. Poor girl…she was really drunk. I was going to walk her home, but another one of her friends did instead. S’all good. Then they wanted to go some more, and the rest of us decided to go home I got a ride from an indian kid who fucking owns at the guitar…he’s amazing. ;x It’s cool….I’m making friends and making contacts and networking for once I’m working in the field. That’s very important. It feels good to know that I have some friends hanging around. Oh, I’m forgetting parts. Another friend kinda made me get in his vehicle so he could drop me off at my house after class. It was kinda nice. It’s nice to be liked….I never really was back in the day. I also escorted another one of my fairly tipsy friends back to his house to help him bring in groceries because he was kinda messed up and his parents were there and he didn’t know if he could get up the steps or not….so I brought him by, met his parents and it was kinda cool. Yeah….that was my night.

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November 5, 2006

I don’t drink. I’ve seen people’s lives get screwed up because of it… and I don’t really think it’s cool to be drunk. Most of my classmates think I’m a prude, but I really don’t care what any of them think. All I can say is, I can’t wait to graduate next year.

November 5, 2006

RYN: Thanks for the notes, but I think you misunderstand on a few points. When I use the word “alone,” I do not mean unaffected by others, for we are all affected by others, always. I mean it in the deeper sense, that every experience we have is uniquely our own. That our soul is ours alone. Let me give you a quote that I like that is fairly applicable…

November 5, 2006

“We live together, we act on, and react to, one another; but always and in all circumstances we are by ourselves. The martyrs go hand in hand into the arena; they are crucified alone. Embraced, the lovers desperately try to fuse their insulated ecstasies into a single self-transcendence; in vain. By its very nature every embodied spirit is doomed to suffer and enjoy in solitude…”

November 5, 2006

“Sensations, feelings, insights, fancies — all these are private and, except through symbols and at second hand, incommunicable. We can pool information about experiences, but never experiences themselves. From family to nation, every human group is a society of island universes.” ~Aldous Huxley Hopefully that quote gives you a better understanding of what I mean when I say alone…

November 5, 2006

In the book I read, it said that this sense of the word alone could be overcome through love. I should have been more clear. As for perception, we can bend our reality now based on our own perception, but the presence of others forces us to alter our perceptions to fit a commonly accepted one. Psychological studies have been done to show that an individual will agree with a group…

November 5, 2006

…over what is clearly evident. If you were entirely alone, your own construct of reality would be the only reality, and you would be sovereign over it. If, in your mind, you could shape rocks, than there would be nobody to tell you that you couldn’t. Maybe in “reality” you wouldn’t be, but our “reality” is nothing more than the agreed upon “reality” of society. We lock people up because…

November 5, 2006

…their reality differs from society’s. We call them insane. But if they were alone, in the sense you used, meaning not affected in any way by others, and their reality was the ONLY reality, they would be godlike. Omniscient, because all knowledge would be their knowledge. Omnipotent because all reality would be constructed and controlled by them. I realize this is a little farfetched, but..

November 5, 2006

…I don’t think it’s entirely unreasonable. Thank you again for your notes and thoughts, and hopefully these notes help to better explain my own thoughts. ~WEAVER