Blog #26

I feel so good to be back in class. It’s refreshing, honestly. I had grown so bored just sitting around….my new teacher is jewish and he’s almost bursting with energy. It’s crazy. I’m definately looking forward to the class though; it’s the first set of non-bs classes….i.e. it’s the beginning of the cool stuff. Here’s were I learn to play and to make damn cool things.

In other news, I think I pissed off Kelley for ‘ignoring’ her. Meh. She expects too much attention, I think. I have other devotions in life than just her….and sometimes they’re going to trump her. Maybe even more often than not. Hrm. Argh @ weird relationships.

In other other news, I talked to Jacinta again. I think this might’ve been the start of the ‘ignoring’ her thing (with kelley). I kinda blew everyone off…she was really upset. I wish I could’ve helped because somehow I feel like I didn’t. I really wanted to though v.v Meh, I just didn’t have any answers for her about the nuclear war and the things going on with Israel. There’s just nothing I nor her nor anyone but some of the big boys who listen to no one but themselves can do. I tried to be comforting by talking about how to deal with it if it happens but….I don’t think that helped. I swear to god I’m going to take care of her afterwards though; I’m going to find her and I’m going to help her family along. That’s my current task if nuclear winter does come. I think it’ll keep me focused; it’ll be my goal so I don’t give up and break down. People would need me, after all, so why not start with helping the people who I care about most? Jacinta and her family seem a perfect place to start…and from there I’m going to teach my skills at living from the land to others. Maybe along the way up to portland too. Hrm. I’ll find her. Anywho, I mentioned this to her and she agreed. I was almost stunned, to be honest. I had thought….meh. Well who cares what I thought because apparently I was wrong. I’m glad she won’t have a problem with it.

In other other other news, I feel happy and restored again. I’m SO glad the break is over. I needed to get back to this; it makes me feel like a good person to do things and to do things well and to help others around me. I’m very very happy to get back to school and out of limbo.

Love you,

Halcyon