#678

I’ve been feeling *particularly* sexy lately. I’m exploding. There are trails of warmth from my chest straight on down. A nice comfortable turning in my belly. 

I’ve been having new experiences, I’ve been meeting new people and I’m starting to wonder if I wasn’t wrong about a lot of things. After all, how many people have to say the same thing before you have to consider changing your mind? When I look at myself in the mirror, I don’t see ugly anymore. I can almost see what I’ve been told….I can almost see myself as cute. If I cleaned up here, if I cut my hair this way there then maybe….

I’ve been cycling through people. In and out of the dating scene. I’ve barely written about them here, I really only wrote about the first one, syla the asian girl, and the one I was super interested in who got super neurotic, amanda. But there’ve been others too, five. Most were interesting. At first they were anyway. Then they dulled because they lacked lasting power; they liked me and wanted me for what they thought I was, the idea of me. I’m not interested in that. Latest one…latest one likes me for my company and that’s refreshing. I’m excited. 

Lots of super-sexy escapades too, I wish I could write about them more in detail. But  I cannae w/o a friends-only entry. Hm. And I don’t have many people on my friends list. Maybe if there’s interest? 

Bah, but there won’t be interest, nevermind. 

Today has been a good day. 

Have some pics.