#102

The scent of the air tonite is incredible. I can open my mouth, take in a great big breath and I can literally taste the expectancy and possibility in the air tonite. This night is a beautiful one, to be sure. It’s like music. It’s like a musical heartbeat sweeping back and forth like a wave, pushing up against your chest, tightening, then receding, releasing, then coming back and receding all over again. It’s beautiful.

Part of me wants to find out why, wants to consider why tonite is so special. Deep down I know, though, that there isn’t any specific reason at all. All this promise, all this feeling and all this beauty. There really is no reason for it, it merely is. Like the universe, like life, like love, it just is and there’s no reason for it in our reckoning. And that’s ok. There should be times of happiness, there should be some sort of plateau to be reached. I’ve hurt more than enough to deserve something like this, no? I’ve dealt with depression-monologues more than my own share; I’m ready for this. I’m ready to take the other role, now, and to reach out to others as they have to me. So I can show them this beauty, so they can realize it and be happy, too. After all, what good is happiness if you cannot share it with another person?

…I wish everyone could reach out and feel this way, too. There’d be no need for wars, no need for hatred or for serious, unending hurt. Mmm….

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And how I have loved
And I have served
And I have sinned
But I have learnt
As long as you are true to the life that you live
This is the time to feel love

I feel a stirring deep within
Slowly picking up momentum
Like the tide coming in to shore
Over and under in its course

This feeling emblazed inside
Every nerve like a firefly
Hovering above me
Glowing, Glow, Glowing
Glowing, divine

Every nerve like a firefly
This feeling emblazed inside
Every nerve like a firefly

I never want to lose what I finally found
There’s a requiem
A new congregation
And it’s telling me go forward and walk
Under a brighter sky
Every nerve glowing like a firefly
Glowing, divine

Every nerve like a firefly
Glow