To Mike

Hey kid. Well mikeys eyes got checked and they where a ok. So if he keeps having these headachs jess is going to take him to Dr patterson and have him checked out. I am sure its nothen to worry about. Jess got the first half of your life insurance today. The other half will be released once they make sure your crash was an "accident". Meaning you where not drunk or high or anything. I know you where not but they need to see your tox screen and police report first. The Medical Dir. put accidental on your death cert. so it will be hard for them to say it was anything else but an accident. Neat or weird fact is if you had on the seat belt jess would have gotten 20% more. I did not know that.. Its funny dude I go thru these periods where I am lucky to get 4 hours sleep and then go thru periods where I sleep 10 plus hours, but no matter what I just feel tired and drained all the damn time. Mikey got amy to buy 20 candy bars for his school. I am sure selling candy to his aunt is the "hard sale" ;P   I am watching the dog show. I know I Know big excitement right???   I miss you so much Mike. I know fucking broken record here but I just dont know how else to say it. I am always seeing or thinking things that I would have talked over with you and now with you gone I feel so lost. Its just not fair lil brother. I wish so much it was me and not you down that damn hole. Living has never been so hard. Even thru all the bad shit we went thru it was so much better then not having you at all. I hurt all the time and at times it just boils out. I try to only let that happen when no one else is around but that is so hard to do sometimes. I love you lil brother and miss you with all my being!!! Dream a good dream for us..

all my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."