To Mike

Hey Lil brother,
             Its going to be cold but I am still comeing out this morning. I hope enough ice and snow has melted so I can get back to you. Your spot is away back in the back 1/3 of the place. All well come hell or high water I will be there. I kind of crashed today. I got about 8 hours sleep today, witch is about twice of what I have gotten over the last 3 days. Dad is sounding better, I guess the anti-ds they have him on is starting to help him get more balanced. Still in alot of pain of course but more able to live or control or what ever you want to call it. MIkey is doing alot better. Still has a lil chest cold but feeling alot better and able to go to school and stuff. Amy is still sick as a dog. She has a docs appointment tomorrow.

You know its like I am ok for a lil while then BAMMM I hit a brick wall and just fall apart. Its like I feel really guilty because my life is going on even thou yours came to an end. I mean our lives have been tied together since well our births pretty much and now that  your gone it does not seem right or natural that mine is able to continue.. I dont know if I am explaining this right.. I just know it hurts to live with out you kido. Do you remember teaseing me about not wanting to be a paul bearer for me because of my size??? You said thank god I wanted cremation because I would breack your back..lol..asshole… but here it turns out I was one of yours and let me tell you mike I would trade in a sec. for it to be the other way. I love you and miss you so much Mike… I will talk to you more when I come out this morning.. Be at peace lil brother..

All my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."