To Mike

Hey lil bro., Mikey is feeling alot better. He still has the cough and hurt throat but no fever. Plus due to the 6 to 8 inchs of sleet and snow we got he will be getting at least another day off school tomorrow. Everyone took another snow day today. Includeing dad. The guy that owns your road finally came and cleared a way out for them today thou. That was only after his son came by and said he would do it for a 100 dollars. The one house at the end of the road did not have any money so it would have been a 50/50 split between dad and the other house. But jess called the road owner and put the smack down on him and got him to come out and clear it for free. Or at least for the fee you guys had already paid at the start of the year. I am the only one that does not get a snow day so here I sit at work writing this to you. The major roads are find now so there is no bid deal for me to get to work anyway. Except getting out of my drive way. I think I left an inch of rubber burning out of my drive way 😛

I am still feeling very well tell the truth I dont feel anything. I pretend to be happy and playful with people but I dont feel it. I laugh and joke and its all a fake. I miss you brother and I love you so much and your lose has taken so much out of me.. Its like my whole life I was told dont hurt the baby. Your the big brother its your job to protect you lil brother. Now with you gone I feel like a complete and total failure. I know you where a full grown man and did not need my protection but fuck dude after 32 yrs it kind of was a part of me you know?? I am sorry I failed you brother I am so sorry I did not do more for you. Most of all thou I am sorry you are gone. I miss you my friend. I miss you so much…

All my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."