To Mike

Hey Gee, 
                I am watching a dog with no front legs attacking people on tv. Ya really fracking weird. Well looks like Mom Jess Mikey amy and I will be putting the cross up at the crash site tomorrow. I know the whole thing was Dads ideal but he just does not seem able to do it. Well I finally crashed last night. I think I slept for about 9 hours or so.

God mike I just dont know whats going. My whole world picture is so fucked up right now. Amy calls me in tears because the car is going to take 350 to fix and I am like fuck it. I just cannt seem to care about things anymore. Money fuck it. Car getting fixed fuck it. I just dont care. I am reading my books and its just not doing anything for me any more Everything just seems like something to fill time but nothen to take enjoyment from. I am just numb all the time.

Oh sorry all most forget Happy Birthday Eve 🙂 You will be 31 tomorrow lil brother. Did you know for most of the time that man kind has been on this planet the average live span was only 30 years. Living into old age is really only something that has been happening to mankind in recent times. Plus you had mikey so the whole point of being alive on a biology level is do shot those genes into the next generation and you did that too. I am not making sence. Shit is just shooting out of my head. Just engore me 😛  I will write more tomorrow lil brother. Dream a good dream for us.

All my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."