To Mike
Hey bro.
One more nigth after tonight and I am on my off time again. Im thinking about going out and drinking a screw driver for every year of your life… If that does not get me some sleep I dont know what will. Are you out there lil brother are you getting these letters??? Or is this just some fucked up way for me to stay sane another day?? Maybe both?? We get rid of the ECMOs, 3 die 1 lives, and what happens?? I get 3 times the work!! Where the fuck is the logic in that 😛 I have to recon a bunch of units and what does the other two shifts do?? They leave me shit to work with. So i have to order in a bunch of blood to make sure I have it covered. Assholes!! Oh Mikey Jr needs your passcode for your X-box find some way to pass it on will you..
Supposed to be rain, snow and ice again wensday morning.. What do you not want me coming out there or what?? Well I am not to the point where I can believe you can already control the weather so I am still coming out. For at least a half hour or so.. You where never able to tell me what to do anyway 😛 I miss you brother. I keep hearing mom and dad cry over the phone when I told them you had died. Jess keeps wearing you jacket. The transformers one I bought you for your 30th B-day. Well she keeps wearing all your cloths. Well the shirts anyway. Its hard to believe our 31st b-day is only a few days away. Mom and dad are going to put a cross at the spot you died that day.
I am tired brother. I would give anything to just hug you once more. I did not want to leave the showing. I know it was just your shell laying there but I just did not want to leave. I stayed at you side durning the whole thing. You did not leave my site the whole nite we where there. My had does not hurt anymore from when I hit the way when they forced me out. I dont know why I cannt get this shit out of my head brother.. You where so much a part of my life and I still can not get my head around liveing the rest of mine with out you. If it was not for the family I would have already joined you I think.. Dream a good dream for us lil brother..
Will all my love
Billy
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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."
They always know what you are thinking of, regardless of location. I have to believe that my daughter and son who are no longer here, listen and know what I am saying to them, It’s part of what keeps me sane on a day to day basis…I’m sorry for your losss…family is never easy and it seems as though you and Mike were close..I’m sorry for your loss and hope you can see the end of the tunnel..Syd
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RYN _ Thank you so much…it’s a hoot of a site. Hubby likes it too. As for your entries… do whatever you need to do to get by… I would do the same thing.
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I think what you are doing here is amazingly healthy. We all talk to people we have lost, you are just doing it in another form. Just don’t let yourself get weighted down with guilt if you miss a day, or stop all together.
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