To Mike

Hello Brother,
                    It warmed up big time here today. Man did my shoulder feel it too. I know it was never as bad as your shoulder but I had to jump into a hot bath this morning just to get the throbing gone and down to a dull ach. Its all foggy now. Well in about 10 hours or so it will be 5 weeks since you left us. I freack thinking about how close it was that amy and I would have been in chicago that weekend. Do you rember that military scifi convention and I was telling you about and how I wanted to go. Well it was that weekend. It took everything I had to drive from south county down to mom and dads and not lose it. I dont know how we would have gotten back from chicago. Do you know how when you cry your nose gets all stuffed up?? Well I have had this head cold since well since last week and amy got me this spray to help my runny nose and did help. But man oh man I was looking at your pic and started to tear up and nose started to get stuff but that spray kicked it and it HURT. I dont know what the hell it was doing up there but my noise felt on fire!! 😛

I think for amy’s b-day we will be over at mom and dads. She wants me to make a pot of my chili for everyone. She loves that chili. She broke down when she reliazed this will be the first b-day you two will not share together. What are the odds I would marry a woman with a b-day one day after yours?? Oh I dont have to replace amys windshield but she did not pass the emission tests so i will end up paying something to get it fixed after all. I know I know haha. They named the new Dr. Who. Some 26 yr old kid that i know nothen about. I will give him a try but hes got big shoes to fill..

Im so tired. I dont really sleep anymore I just pass out for a few hours and then drag myself along. I miss you brother I miss you with all my heart. I would give anything to have you back anything lil brother.. Dad is still takeing it really hard he is starting to worry mom a bit. I dont know what do to brother. Everybody is together in their pain but at the same time apart. John travolta’s son died. He went into a seizure and did not come out is the way I read it. I was always afraid that is how you would go, but I see that  you would have wanted to go the way you did enstead of that way. Better one big ride then in bed like that.. I love you lil brother dream a good dream for us because we are living a nightmare.

All my love

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."