To Mike

Hey Gee Money. Dad wanted me to tell you the Rams will get a good draft pick. Top 4 at least he said. Lions with no wins will get number 1 for sure I dont rember the other two KC was maybe one. Someone else asked so I thought I would tell you too. Felix from BSG kissed some no name guy on his way to a mission. So it was not a love afair with a name char. as of yet, but they are hinting that he may have had something going on with a Boomer model on new Cap. We are supposed to get more ice, rain and snow over the next few days so we will have to wait and see how that turns out for us. Christmas is shaping on this way. We open presents at mom and dads on the 24th and then on the 25th we have early lunch at Uncle Basils and Dinner at rich and sues. Knowing you will not be there just  I dont know I just does seem to care much about stuff. I will do my best to pretend for mikey but man its so hard.

Jess says she dreams about you alot. Hear your voice feel your toch. I envy her that. All my dreams I am fighting to find you. I had one dream that I died and I was surrounded with all these family members that had already passed. All I could do was push them away and ask "where is mike where is he" they kept crowding back onto me and I kept pushing and looking for you. Im always looking. I dont know kid maybe it was better this way for you. I know you where in alot of pain and all the medical problems you where haveing was takeing you away from us piece by piece, but I so wish you where still here. I am soooo sorry I did not stay up with you longer on thanksgiving. I was so sick and I had been up since 5 am but damnit I want those extra 2 hours back now. I am so sorry I did not make your life easier while you where here. I could have paid for your teeth or your car or just giving you more cash so you did not have to worry about it so much. I wish with all my heart I could ask for you to forgive me brother.

I dont care what the weather I will still be up there on the 24th. I will spend at least a lil time with you. Leaveing you at that showing was the hardest thing I ever did. I know it was just your shell there but I would have stood at your side all night. My boss gave me one of those lil sorry cards for you lossing you. I just wanted to say "hey great showing me you care 3 weeks later is the way to go fucker." All well some of the people here have been really nice but for the most part I could give a damn about them. I feel myself being very hostile to the world. I would love to be in a fight. I have not felt this way since I was young dumb and full of cum, but what can i say married life takes that out of a guy….lol..:P  Rest well lil bro.

All my love lil brother

Billy

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."