Bare is the back.

Growing up I never had the best friend at school like most kids did. I mean I had a ready made best friend at home. My brother and I where only 16 months apart. We might as well have been twins. We where like night and day. I mean I was the fat kid that sat in the back of the class got wicked good grades and was never seen or heard. My brother was like a jack rabbit on crack. Everyone loved him. The skinny good looking jock. He hated school and well if he was not being heard or seen then he was sneaking up behind you to get a good scare out of you. But we also loved the same things. Cartoons, scifi., scary movies, sour candy, D&D. LIke I said a ready made best friend.

There was more then that thou. Mike was my lil brother. We where brothers. If you do not have a sibling a close sibling then I can not explain what that means and if you do then you already know. We would fight. I mean good old rolling around in the mud punching and biting and well hair pulling no holds bared fighting. But if you thought that meant you could mess with the other then man you where fucked in the head…lol.. One time we where walking home from school and we have had a fight so he was about a half block in fount of me and we where not talking. A local kid thought it would be a good time to jump Mike because well he thought I would stay out of it. Man was he wrong. We beat the hell out of that kid and still walked the rest of the way home not talking to each other..lol..A mutual friend said it best "It was never Bill Landon and Mike Landon it was always Bill and Mike."

Oh god how I miss him. I don’t sleep well on the weekends and so its harder to control my emotions. I never knew I could hurt this much. I mean I have seen some sick shit in this job. I have seen mothers holding their dead babies. I have seen lil kids with their legs ripped off or their arms gone. Nothen affected me I was like Ice Man. It just bounced off me and I moved on. I know cold hearted mother fucker right?? But this well there has not been a day that had gone by that I have not lost it. My problem is that I am so different from my brother. For you see Mike lived for today and I live for tomorrow. If we where warriors going into battle tomorrow I would be sitting back at HQ going over the plans for the millionth time but Mike would be out feasting and partying yelling "Play now for tomorrow we may be dead!!!!." I look to the tomorrow. I see a long road without my brother there to make it a fun one.

My back is bare for I have not my brother to guard it. God I miss my brother!!

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"Bare is the back without brother to guard it."