I wish

I wish i could write poetry, I can’t…. I wish i could could find someway how of expressing myself without judgment or thinking i have other intentions then what it really is. I wish i could find someone to share the deepest deepest darkest thoughts, I have a therapist, and even with her i feel like have to have a certain persona. I wish i could be 100 % transparent, stop feeling like i have to keep a mask on, that when I’m by myself it melts away along with the smiles, the laughs, and the bullshit words from the day I’ve had. Im just tired truly wanna be myself but when I do i end up completely alone.