Feeling bummy

OK, Warning – this entry is going to ramble and contain some “whining”. Please ignore – I’m just trying to vent.

Feeling really bummed out right now.
Was looking forward to the street soccer game today for the whole week… Got there, lost two games, and was criticised both times by my teammates.

If I really did feel like I played poorly, I’d be ok with it.. but I think it’s really nagging away at me because I honestly don’t think I played that badly… in fact I still think I played the best out of all of them! I made key tackles, and most of the chances our team had were created by me.

First game, got criticised for chasing down the opponents… “don’t chase, just mark you man, don’t get tired”. But my chasing led to the two good chances that we did have. It’s just frustrating because I have a very different style of play from S. He wants to slowly pass the ball and play the “beautiful game”. I’m the – get the ball to me, I’ll dribble past 2 players and score kinda person. I pass the ball a fair amount, but the court is honestly too small and cramped to play a patient passing game. And we tried that anyway for 40 minutes with little effect. Argh.

Second game, got criticised for poor ball control. What?? I barely touched the damn ball the second game, and I only lost it while I was in possession, once! Poor first touch? I honestly don’t recall making any poor touches. I’d really love it if I could remember such instances, but I can’t.. so I feel the criticism was realy unfair and it kinda pisses me off. Especially when S, the guy telling me to work on my fitness and ball control lost the ball while trying to dribble as the last man, and conceded a goal… then lost the ball again and almost conceded the another… that guy is the one criticising me. What the hell??

Yeah sure dude you can run marathons, and you love playing a “beautiful game”… but it doesn’t work for you. And he said to me, “yeah Leo I’ll arrange a game next week, but promise me you’ll run for three days in the next week. You’re unfit.” in a very condescending way. What the f? Let’s just get it out there that right now I’m definitely fitter than the average person. I patiently explained to him I work out EVERYDAY.. his response? A smirk, and, “I’m talking about running for 30 – 40 minutes, not 5 minutes”. I really really really wanted to punch him in the face right then. I run, swim, or cycle everyday for 25 minutes, with weight training on top… just cos this idiot can run a bloody marathon really gives him no right to be such an assh*le…

Trounced him at Winning Eleven (Soccer video game) 4-0 later… felt damn good. And you know how? I did it by playing a BEAUTIFUL PASSING GAME. Passed the ball in his box, and around his helpless defenders. Arrogant schmuck. Next time I’m gonna throw in some trash talk as well.

Now that I think about it, for some reason S has always had a point to prove against me for some reason. Even in JC… always has to try to prove he’s better, or whatever. Dude, you aren’t. I’m not going to go into why – I don’t want to sound like a dick.

Argh… just really frustrated right now. Next week is the next game. If he criticises me again I’m gonna give him a bloody earfull. I wish we had enough people for two teams. Then I could play against him and freaking kick his ass.