makes me sick

It makes me sick to my stomach to think that danielle exists. ok thats kinda harsh but o well. i dont know her and i hate every thing that she’s done, all the drama she’s caused and turned him in to a cheating bastard. ok well so did i on the last one but thats different damn it. What the hell is he thinking? talk about male stupidity! this man is so fucking blind i dont understand it, it would be almost comical if it wasnt him. and here i am bashing on some girl a thousand miles away for no good reason other than im jealous. i hate that, im usually not the jealous type. why does he have to bring that out in me? i dont want it to end like this, with me pissed off and him clueless. and truth be told im not even sure he’s clueless about it. the fucker. i dont want to hurt him but there are times when he hurts me that i just want to get even and hurt him just as bad. i dont but there are days when i want to. im so sick of being tied up in this bullshit, im sick of his games, im sick of my games, im sick of worrying, im sick of trying to be supportive only to have it thrown back in my face yet demanded at the same time, im sick of playing in to everything, im sick of feeling bad about everything, im sick of not wanting to lose him, im sick of meghan, im sick of danielle, im sick of him and im sick of me.