starting over one more time

you were my friend, my best friend, my fuckin twin. of course I’m gonna think about you and wonder how your doing… I remember sitting at your kitchen (damn I remember it so well) you don’t know how much I would love to be running through that field, to be in your fuckin back yard…. I dunno. when I think of you now….. I know if I saw you, if I was standing face to face with you right now the very first second I looked into your eyes I would fall right back inlove with you like nothin ever happened. but I haven’t even talked to you… but it’s ok I understand. I’ve been through this enough times with countless other friends. I just worry about how many more friends I can do this with, ya know? I mean I’m gettin older and how many times can I start over. all my old friends tell me ya I miss you but it’s been along time and things have changed, I think you’ve even said that. so do I have left to do. start the fuck over again….. I don’t think I have anywhere else left to go??????????? where can I go to start over one last time?