a letter to Hollie

I’m not sure how where or when to start what I want to say. yea it has been almost a year since I’ve seen you I know before I used to go a while, at the most a few months without taking a trip up there at least for a night so this is the longest I’ve been away. and I can really feel it ya know… like my mind knows how long it’s been but my body and my heart weighs heavy from it. blah that was kinda cheesy but hey most of this letter might be. it really sucks not being able to talk to you as much and seeing you. that line from the perfect circle songs explains it alot (with you and other things I feel are gone from my life). when I do get a chance to see whats going on in your life its usually the little peices I read on your journal thing which just makes me want to be up there and actually in your life even more. so many things you’ve said in there that I’ve felt and other things that have made me sad and wanted to be there and keep you company…. it feels like thats my only window now to see you through and I would love to smash it open and climb through.

ok well I’m not totally sure what I’m trying to say to you in this I just miss you and seems like I always come around to thinking about you. and regret not taking more time to spend with you and get to know you more when I was there… maybe if I had I would still be there and still be more apart of you life… if I figure out how to say all this better and more clear I’ll let you know….

hope we get to talk soon later babe….