Yay?

I mustered up all my courage this morning and ventured out to a "mommy group" for the first time. It was actually kind of fun, and I think I made a friend. We’re planning to get together sometime next week. Just one slight issue….my new friend is not a mommy.

He’s really nice, funny, slightly nerdy, totally the type of guy I’m generally friends with. But I’m a little worried about whether Noah will think it’s ok for me to hang out with a guy when he’s not around. A few months ago I wouldn’t have given it a second thought (I’ve always had platonic guy friends), but after his weird jealousy thing with the guy from our childbirth class, when all I wanted to do was hang out with his WIFE, now I have no idea what to expect.

There’s a part of me that feels VERY annoyed that I feel the need to ask "permission" to have a friend. I mean, DO I need to ask him? I really have no idea. It’s honestly not a big deal, it’s just someone who has a baby around the same age as mine, who I hit it off with….he’s married, I’m engaged, it’s completely platonic.

One way or another I’ll definitely tell Noah about it, because obviously not telling him would make him suspicious. But I’m not sure whether to just like inform him "hey, I’m going to be hanging out with this guy next week," or if I need to sort of phrase it as a "would you be ok with this?" type of question. I feel like making it into a question makes it a bigger deal than it is. And then what if he decides to say he’s not ok with it? Then I have to actually cancel plans because "my fiance won’t let me." Which would feel very wrong to me.

Sometimes I feel like even the most simple things in my life end up being complicated.

(and yes, the guy is very attractive. I sort of wish he was ugly, because that would make it much less likely that Noah would have a problem with it)