Official

Yesterday I took a (very exhausting) road trip with Baby up to the new city to sign a bunch of stuff and get the keys to my new place. So I now officially have a house and I’m really going to move. I think I’m mostly excited about it, although I hate moving and packing so I’ll be relieved when that’s all over with.

The house is great…it’s just a rental, but it’s really nice. When I went there to walk through it, as I pulled into the driveway there were kids biking around the neighborhood and stuff. It makes me smile to think of Baby being able to grow up in a real neighborhood, with a park just down the street and lots of kids to play with. And the rental company went through and made it look really nice. That was my only real concern with the house, that when I initially looked at it there was another family living there and they were kind of messy, so I was hoping it would be all cleaned out at least, but it looks like they actually recarpeted and repainted it and everything, so it feels brand new. Really excited about my house now. 🙂

I forget if I’ve written at all about my whole money plan thing. We’re renting because we wanted to get settled and get to know the neighborhoods and things before fully committing to a house. But I have enough in my savings for a large downpayment on a house, so I was thinking that once we get settled I’ll look into buying a duplex that I can rent out…if both sides are rented out, then it should be enough to be paying off the mortgage and give me a small amount of income on top of that. I’m not really ready at all to go back to work yet, but it’s bothering me not to have any income of my own, so that might be a compromise. Noah thinks it’s a great idea.

I still sometimes feel guilty for the fact that Noah is paying all the bills right now. I feel like it’s maybe not fair. But he keeps telling me that it’s absolutely fair, that my being home with Baby enables him to spend as much time at work as he does, and if I wasn’t home with her we’d be paying for childcare, and he’d be sharing in that cost. I think he’s just much more comfortable with the "it’s OUR money" thing than I am. What he says makes sense rationally, and I don’t really feel "dependent" because if he wasn’t around I know I could make things work. I think maybe I worry sometimes that he’ll start resenting me for it or something.

So anyway, I’m busy making tons of calls and getting all the utilities and things set up, and the movers are coming in a couple weeks. And then I won’t live in this city anymore, which is very weird. But I think it’s a good thing.