Nothing really

I feel like writing. But I haven’t got much to write about. No dramas, no incidents, no angst.

All just plain sailing at the moment. I’m off work this week, after four weeks on the day ward, which was a nice change for a while, and I was working with lyn who seems to have taken a bit of a shine to me!

Things with friends are good, I’m off Easter weekend, lis is back from London. The Hen do is sorted and to be paid for this week when I get paid. There’s much excitement, it’s gone from being a long weekend to a whole week affair because we got a better deal. Eight of us are going, to chill on the beach by day and party the night away. It’s very exciting, a proper girly week away. Haven’t done that for three years, what with people having babies and boyfriends and things so Laura’s wedding has been a good excuse!

Things with dan are amazing. He’s smitten, which is something I still struggle with a little bit at times, it’s just a strange notion that someone can’t get enough of me. I can’t remember a time when someone wanted me as much as he does, literally just wanting to be with me. It’s happened so fast but it feels so right, like it’s happening how it’s meant to. We take the piss out of each other, we laugh a lot, and he turns me on like nobody has for a long long time!

He likes best about me the bits I like the least about myself which again is something to get used to. I don’t usually openly flaunt my stomach, and I’m not used to hands roaming about my body as If it doesn’t belong to me, all because he says he can’t sit next to me and not be touching me.

I think it’s just been so long since I’ve been in a relationship where it’s equal, where we’re into each other the same amount, where someone tells me they love me and I actually believe it, I KNOW that dan means it. It’s taking a while to come to terms with the fact that this is just the way it is, that he likes me, he’s more than willing to tell me, and does tell me all the time. I don’t feel insecure, he’s open with his time and his heart, he’s available to me emotionally and physically.

Basically he’s the guy I’ve been holding out for. He’s the reason I haven’t settled for second best. And if things continue in this vein, he’s definitely been worth the wait.

Xx