Far too much information

For those of you who are squeamish, or sensitive, or easily offended, or who have absolutely no desire to read about a sexual problem dan and I are having, then look away now! And don’t say you weren’t warned!

Basically, the sex is amazing. The problem is, dan is ridiculously well endowed. Not in a my boyfriend has a large penis kinda way, in a way that actually makes you want to cross your legs a bit and yell that you’re not coming near me with that.

We had an incident recently where we’d both had some drinks and were maybe a little over zealous and things were painful for a while after, I ended up also with a water infection and sex was off the agenda for a little while.

Now I’m recovered, we’re having issues. I’m not sure if it’s mostly psychological, cos I know the damage it can do! But it’s an issue. We get so far then have to stop. It’s stupid cos we’ve had sex uneventfully so i know it can happen.

Dan’s been wonderfully supportive over it all, but if it’s frustrating me this much it must be frustrating him. He keeps telling me it’ll be worth the wait and it’s all good, but I don’t want to feel like I’m teasing him. He wants me so much, in every way, and I want him too. I just feel like a let down at the moment, like a disappointment. He keeps reassuring me I’m not, and that we’ll get through this together, which is a lovely thing to say, and I do believe him, but everyone has their limit.

Essentially I think I’m scared that I’ve psyched myself out so much that we’ll never be able to have sex again. Which is ridiculous because if we’ve done it before there’s no physical reason we can’t do it again. That’s the freaky thing though, if it was physical I could take tablets or whatever and know it’d get better. How do you talk yourself down from this mindset that it’s going to hurt so you’re setting yourself up to fail before you’ve even started?

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