All change

Dan got the job. We found out yesterday. I was suffering a raging hangover from the bank holiday, where we had bumped into my brothers friends and they had insisted on buying me jaeger bombs. They treat me like a surrogate for my brother sometimes when we’re out, I suppose they must miss him, they’ve been friends a long time.

Anyways, dan popped out to the pub for a couple of hours, I had a little snooze on his settee in front of the snooker, then we had Chinese to celebrate. He was a bit clingy, insisting that he really wanted me to stay, everytime I woke in the night he was wrapped around me. Basically we had a chat on Friday about what the job would mean for us if he got it. He said he’d had opportunities before that he’d passed up because a girlfriend had asked him not to go, and that he’d be foolish to do it again, so he’d had to think about this with me not in the equation, because I was the biggest reason not to go.

He said obviously he wants us to stay together. I agree this is a massive career opportunity, and I’m not the kind of person who would beg him not to go. If the shoe was on the other foot and I needed to do something like this for my career, I know I’d have to go for it. We don’t know yet where he’s going to be based, or what kind of schedule he’s going to be on, so things are up in the air somewhat.

I guess it’s going to be a suck it and see situation, the only way we’ll know how and if it’s going to work is by trying it. It all feels very grown up. I guess I’ve watched my mum and dad having these discussions, I never thought I’d be having them, especially so soon into a relationship. But it’s serious between us and it’s weird, but breaking up isn’t even an option I’ve considered. I’m not saying it’s gonna be easy, it could well be the making or the breaking of us. But I’ve never for a second contemplated walking away. I love this boy for reasons I can’t even explain, even when he drives me mental I want to punch him and kiss him all at the same time.

Xx