Crazy

I like to sit here from time to time, and just talk. At times, if you have been a frequent ready, you have seen some entries that are just nothing but me talking. For they all have a point, it usually isn’t blunt. They are words, that make you think. Sentences that you have to manipulate and turn every which way to make them sounds right. Or wrong for that matter. Tonight, might just be one of those nights. I feel like writing, typing I should say, but I don’t feel like telling a story. I feel like just letting everything flow, and fall as it falls. No need to try to sugar coat anything. Just let me be me…

I ended up over at Pinky last saturday afternoon. It was rough. Drank a little, not sure how much, but we drank. It felt good. Like I have said before, don’t really have too many friends that I can hang out with, hence why I have no life, so it was all good. Me and him and 2 of his buddies. It was a blast, thought about old days, laughed at the present, and made plans for the future. It felt good to just get out and about, and man was the beer going down smooth. So it did me good I guess. Can’t wait to do it again. But its like everything else, you have to do it with moderation. Too much of a good thing, can turn bad.lol. So its all good. Can’t wait for the fourth of July..lol

I woke up sunday with a slight head ache. The gallon of water that was in the fridge did litte to quence my thirst. So off to Johns house I went. It was too early in the moring, my head was hurting, and I was thirsty.I get there, and time to go to work. It was a fine morning. Cloudy, breeze, and then the sun came out. 8 hours later, I had my check in hand, had finished all the painting that I needed to do, and I was on my way. Got a nice sun burn once agian, didn’t learn the first time, but it was all good. Got home, took a quick shower, and off to Del Rio I was.

I ended up at the movies. Been a while since I had been. Ended up watching Don’t Mess with the Zohan. It was totatly what I didn’t xpect, but Adam always makes me laugh. It was all right. Give it a B maybe A-. I think what killed it, was the whole plot of the movie. If they would have stuck with him wanting to be a hair dresser, instead of an anti-terrorist agent, it would have been better. Lots of racial profiling if you ask me. Oh well, who really cares what on tv now a days huh. Watch it if you want, and if you like Adams ass butt naked..knock yourself out…

I got out of the movies, and crusied the mall. Wasn’t looking for anything or anybody for that matter, and ended up at Zales. Looked and looked. Ha, funny, I used to be thier number one customer back in the day. I used to spoil my girlfriends. If I had 5% of what I spent on them..I would be alright. So I am looking and looking, checkout the watches, didn’t see anything that I liked. I can’t seem to find one with a green face on it. Plus my Polo is still ticking..lol. Thought about asking them if they could custom make me one with a green face, but didn’t want to go thru the hassel. I slowely worked my way over to the misc. section. The place where they put the odd ball things. I mean other than the watches and the misc. section, nothing much else that I could by right. I don’t wear a necklace, and I only have one ring. I am not the flashy kinda of guy. So I go and have a look. They had like this big ass cross with a diamond on it. Looked very tacky. It was something that you would see in a rap video. It was on sell 200 bucks. Thought about buying it, end putting it on Ebay. Then I thought, who in the blue hell would want that..lol. So I saw something that caught my eye out of the corner of my eye. In a small corner of the display case, there were some money clips. The one that I have was getting kinda worn out. It didn’t really keep my money in place, it would always let it go away..lol. Na, the spring mechanim in it was worn out, it would "snap". So they had three of them there. The one I wanted, when I actually saw it, has scratches all over the back. Kinda like someone used it, and didn’t like it so they took it back. I told the lady if she would discount me something for it, and she said it was already on sale, so no. I was like damn it. So then I saw the other one. It again has a very slight scratch on the back she wanted 40 bucks for it. I was like damn it, it was nice though. Then finally I saw the simple one in the back. Like I said, I am simple so no need for glitter..lol. Its a nice stainless steel one, with mini checker board pattern on the bottom. Just a 3×4 pattern. I was like sold. So yeah, that was the event of that. Dusted off the Zales card and off I went..

I ended up at Chilis. Hadn’t been there, like I said in a while, so I decided to stop on by. I was there just minding my own business when the watress came over and was like hey how you doing, my name is….I will be your waitress. I was like cool. She was like what would you like to drink. Miller Light. So she leaves, and does the half turn look back at me to see if I was looking at her. Guess I just answred that question huh. So she comes back, and goes so where you from, haven’t seen you around here. So there is my hint. I am sorry, but you just don’t ask a customer especially at a place like that that kinda question. So I was like I am from Brackett, and I don’t get out much that is why you haven’t seen me around here. I smiled and she laughed and said oh ok. Takes my order, and she leaves. I am not paranoid, but I can sense when people are looking at me from the back, or from the side, or from anyplace for that matter. So every once in a while, before she brought me my order, I caught her looking at me, and just smiling. I was like damn, guess I am looking good..lol. So I get my food, and she is like if you need anything else, just call me..sweety.. I looked at her and was like ok. I ate, had two beers, and could have done what I wanted but I didn’t. Not that I was scared, or anything, I was just thinking about someone else…

So I get the txt from D asking me how my date is going. I am like dude I am not on a date. I just went to the movies. What complelled me to tell her about the waitress that was hiting on me, is beyond my mind. I just came out and told her about it. I told her, I was eating dinner, and I think the waitress wants me…Thats all I said. The whole sentence just turned everything upside down I think. CAuse like this afternoon, when she gave me my Monday afternoon 8 oclock call, she brought it up. I wanted to discuss it with her, that nothing happend. Then she was like I got so jealous, but you could have taken the waitress home if you wanted to, but you didn’t cause of me, and I don’t think I should keep you from doing things like that. I would call it a contradiction of her words per say, but its all right. I am just going to leave it at that. I liked the fact, that when I asked her, if she had other guy friends that she talked to, she said yes. And when I asked her, if when another one of her guy frien

ds told her that he was on a date, if she got jealous she said no. I was thinking to myself..my point xactly….

The mind is a mysterious thing ya know. They say if you set your mind to something, that it will happen. I guess this is true. I say it in the sense, that if you think I am going to be sick, cause I don’t want to go to work, you can fool the body to get sick. If you tell your mind, dude that is a good price for that item, so much money later, you got the best deal. I wonder if you get your mind to think you don’t care, when your heart does…which one will win…

Unanswered Questions of the day/night….

What was said about her, that she didn’t want to share…

Was I wrong asking once again something from her, that she didn’t want to share…

Is it wrong to think High Enough by Damn Yankees is a good song…

Why do you always want to break up with me, and we are not even together….

Goodnight

JP