Working towards that goal…

I called off work today.  Didn’t mean to but honestly, my tooth has been killing me and part of the filling fell out. WONDERFUL. So today I have to go see the dentist…which I’m petrified of him. I am also scared to call up that personal trainer and meet with him for the first time..even though I signed up for the gym membership there yesterday. C’mon 15lbs damn you! 

I have been cleaning the house today, and searching for my license plate renewal papers because I have been driving on an expired plate since the first of the month. Not something I’m proud of, once again.

Been thinking a lot of the past. And really missing the dancer lifestyle. Not so much the partying just the adventure that each night brought something new, and being able to show up the other girls on the pole. Ever since pole chicks came to town though and started teaching girls how to pole. there have been more and more strippers coming out of the woodwork. Sorta pissed me off. But I guess it gave them the tools they needed to go out and do it…but do it like the rest of us did..with determination, and learning from the other girls, and developing your own style. Don’t come in with some store bought skills and think you’re going to get my respect.

I plan to start dancing again in maybe 4 months. The personal trainer said he could get me to my goal in a few months, and if I am happy with it, i will go back and start saving money for my boob job. Man I want that sooo bad. They cut back the extra money they gave us at work so saving that way would not be an option anymore. I better get back to cleaning. i only have two rooms to clean so I don’t know why I am procrastinating so damn much.