Moral Dilemmas

 So far the more I have been blonde the more I like it. Silly, sure, but this was a huge change for me. It makes me laugh when I am driving and guys will be next to me and keep staring and roll up really slow trying to get a look at me and see  if I’m cute. lol.

Blondes just get noticed more. I think brunette can be more sultry (think that super hot victorias secret model) but Blonde is fun and bubbly and approachable.  Sitting here at work, which for the last few months was fantastic money wise, but this pay period not so much.  I have been not talking to anyone worthwhile, and Lyle is all over me like " you used to be in the top ten but now you’re not, lets bring back the fire"

Honestly, it’s nerve wracking. I feel somewhat alienated at work these days, just out of place somewhat. Marti has started talking more and more about her sex life and relationship at work. At first I didn’t mind but I really like her and I feel bad for how things are going for her. She is a great woman, 37, two kids, 16 and 9. She is in the middle of getting divorced for the second time, and its been really tough on her. She is so in love with the idea of being in love and really wants to be married etc, but she always tends to get screwed over when it comes to guys. Her last husband for example cheated on her with a fellow worker from the grocery store.  And he just sort of STOPPED paying the bills.  Then she meets this one guy and dates him on and off for 7 months, but he would just dissappear for weeks at a time and not call her, and he never wanted to introduce her to the kids.   So she gets online at a dating website and meets a few guys, one who decides that he wants to just have sex with her and have no strings attatched. She goes back and forth with the idea that she wants to but doesnt want to because she doesnt want to feel like a slut and shes really more of a relationship girl. Then out of no where she meets this other guy, the one she is seeing now, and they text for a week and finally meet, and BAM, he wants to take her to california, and he wants to move in , and have a baby with her etc! And he won’t tell her he loves her but he says YOU KNWO HOW I FEEL. And he talks about marrying her etc….its been a month now. Marti used to have a drinking problem, but recovered, but he drinks every single night.  And then she told him that she didnt want to be drinking every night, because she always ends up drinking with him, but then he stops for one night and then has tremors and shakes. It’s a HUGE red flag but she’s ignoring it and totally doesn’t think the rules apply. I’m worried for her, and for her kids.  She pretty much would cut me out of her life and make working there hell if I were to tell her how truly worried I am. I don’t know, but it seems like I’m going to have to let this one play out.