Life Goes on

 I can’t believe how stressful my family has been thru this whole situation. At first, it would seem as if they wanted me to have an abortion because they didn’t want to see me out there being like the 16 year old moms you see. Which, mind you, not every 16 year old mom is oh so bad. Steriotype at it’s best. But also, they didn’t seem to care how I felt about the situation.

The fact  of the matter is.. I will be a very good mother, who has a great man standing by her side ready to take his place as a father, who loves me, and will love this child with all he has got.  Hows that for one hell of a run on sentance!?

In other news, I am probably going to have to quit my serving job that I just got because this pregnancy seems like its going to be a lot more delicate than origionally planned. I just do not want to miscarry, and there is so much to be wary of the first few months, the doctors will most likely  be telling me that I need to take it more easy than I do serving. The lifting and constant bending, and stress levels get pretty high while I’m there, and I just don’t think a few hundred extra dollars a month is really worth the life of my baby. AT ALL.

I keep running into all my ex boyfriend. That would make three I have run into in the last two weeks.

One at walgreens, and maybe he lives in my neighborhood now, cuz I keep seeing him on the street right next to my apartment, and one up by tigertail….and another at walmart.  I didnt even realize I had so many boyfriends over the last 6 years…but I guess I’ve had a couple.   Altho I always like to stay in a pretty committed situation…you just cant help it when something turns out bad for you, or people cheat on you because they are selfish pieces of shit.

Granted, in the last couple years, hormonally I have gone thru so many changes. Back and forth between doctors, and them telling me I might never concieve, and here I am almost 6 weeks preggo, but treading on thin water.

I wish sometimes I could rub it in peoples faces how good I’m doing. But then, that wouldn’t be very nice, would it? Nah.