April Through November…

I know I didn’t take the time like I should have to fill in the remaining months throuh my entry. I just grew impatient with sitting there and talking about myself.   But to not have the months would be sad as I know one day I would look back and be upset that I never took the time out.

After Chad and I got together I had Joe move out. Things were hard on  him and til this day still are. The dating world has been rough on him and financially he has had a hard time too.  He moved 45 minutes away ou to Dekalb and still worked here in Rockford so he was spending about 200 a month in gas and couldn’t afford the child support. He kept telling me things like he wanted to just disappear and kill himself etc. I tried to help him at every way I could but he is too stubborn, and when he needs the help and takes it releases backlash against me and hurts my feelings again for it.

In june I got a brand new 2013 Kia hatch. I love it but the payments are 420 a month. Was no problem when I was working at Fms but I quit to go back to beauty school so now am just dancing occasionally when I feel up to it or good enough about myself to do so. Sometimes it’s taxing because my self esteem is still so low.

I got my surgery, and went through breast implants. No they don’t look like pam anderson. They are about the same size as they were before but nice and full and I don’t have to wear a bra. Not sure if I mentioned that but it was April 18th that I did that.

I start beauty  school back up at Regency Beauty Institute on January 7th, and I am pumped.

Brendon just had his 2nd birthday, and he now needs to have a speech therapist because the doctor at his two year check up said that he is behind for his age and they need to evaluate him. I hope it’s not as bad as they say…and they hold kids up to all these standards where they just assume that they develop all the same but each is different.

Me and Chad had some horrible trust issues come up in August, where I found out that back in april he almost cheated on me on his bday in my home with his best friend at the times wife. He said that he would never do it again and we tried to handle it the best way possible, but I don’t know how to properly say what happened with that and not sound foolish for staying with him. I do trust myself that i made the right choice to stay with him and that we did work through it. I don;t know if he would ever do it again but I hope not as he did seem truly remorseful.

I went ro see Bad Boy Bill for Dayglow the paint dance party in Milwaukee with Starr and her bf Max and Chad. We had a great time and hope to see the DJ Bl3nd show on NYE the same way.    Going to see a movie in the morning.  And Chad right now is somehow watching zoolander. why…chad…why?