I’m in love with a cracka…

Hey everyone,

Gotta keep it white and nerdy. Heh. Completely random entry. It’s been surprising, and frustratingly busy at work. All these grumpy, early bird people gotta call in and harass us. WTF? I’m actually having to work today and I don’t like it:( Awh…makes me sad.

But back to my original statement…I’m in love with a cracka…*taken from I’m in Love With A Stripper by T-Pain except whited out;)* He’s absolutely amazing and I love him, sickeningly so in fact. 😀
JESUS…IF these phones don’t stop ringing I’m going to physically choke some old people.
Anyhow I stayed the night with MIchael last night, he’s the sweetest guy I’ve ever met. I haven’t really been able to spend much time with him because I’ve been feeling yucky and sick, so yesterday I asked if it would be okay if I stayed the night Wednesday instead of our normal Thursday. He said that would be more than perfect and that if I wanted I could stay Wednesday AND the regular Thursday and Friday. He’s so cute, he misses me just as much as I miss him. He’s the GREATEST. God…young love. To be so utterly submerged in this feeling, it’s like I’m postively ALIVE. He makes me feel so great, I want to hug, kiss, and make love to him all at the same time. He makes me feel like there is so much more in the world than just the here and now, he makes me want more from life. He makes me look forward to tomorrow, just because I know he’s there. He makes me check my phone to see if he might have msged me. He makes me feel GREAT about myself, even if I’m in some raggedy p.j. pants or it’s five in the morning, I’m tear stained, drunk, and munching on some McDonald’s. He’s just that type of guy…and I love him for it. I know you readers are probably sick of the love-fest that I keep writing about…but he’s SO amazing:D

Sorry…
I’ll move on.
My ex called me yesterday…while I was at Michael’s. There isn’t anything there but regret and the hope that I didn’t hurt him too much. And also the hope that he isn’t trying to get back with me, during the last month of us talking he asked me out everyday. I’m not quite sure if it was a whole month, but he would call me up in tears, begging me to get back with him. It was really hard to turn him down, but I knew it was for the best. Things just weren’t right for us anymore. He finally moved on, and got with a girl named Elizabeth…but he broke it off with her. Now he’s been calling "just to see how I’m doing" and I really hope thats all. I still love him…I hope that doesn’t sound bad. But you’ll always have love for someone you spent a great portion of your life with. But that part is over, and I’ve moved on.

Well I’ll update more later. I believe I’m having a crazy episode again. AHH no meds. Damn bipolar.
-Kayla