Crash

 I crashed yesterday. Well, I didn’t feel well. I’m guessing some sort of mild bug. I was achey, tired, and didn’t feel like eating. Plus my temp plummeted which I find odd since it usually goes up when you are sick. 

I was going to gut through it and get John to his gym and swim class but he had a couple bad poops (the kind where it was hard to get to the toilet in time) and it seemed prudent to keep him home. So we all crashed and watched TV all afternoon. They had checked out all of the Ice Age movies from the library last week so the kids decided to snuggle into Lily’s futon and watch them on our traveling TV. I was all good with that since I didn’t feel like moving and I certainly didn’t have the energy to entertain them. I set the kids up with their movies and with some snacks and then I snuggled into the couch, did some stuff on the computer, and watched Netflix. Since hubby is gone, I’m indulging in a guilty pleasure – Vampire Diaries. It’s not bad. Actually, I found it got a bitt better towards the end of the first season. 

I think I needed the down day. It’s been busy and hectic lately and I think my body and brain just needed to turn off for a day. I’m feeling better. We don’t have any commitments today so we are going to my mom’s after John is done with his school work. It will be good to get out of the house. It’s best that I don’t brood and stay home when I have these crashes. Exercise tomorrow morning should have me back to normal – I hope. 

I don’t know what it is about Spring but crashes come a lot more easily during these months. It is also during these times when I day dream more about getting away for a week or two all on my own. I just want to pack my bags, get in the car and start driving. The gypsy in me comes out. Apparently it is my time to "clean house" and emotionally/spirtually recharge and I need time alone to do that. I think the problem is my brain is in that mode so all the extra stuff I have to do just drains me even more and boom, I crash or explode or whatever. 

Sugar challenge has been tough. It’s been a week of really working through the emotional side of it all. I fell off the wagon a little bit yesterday. I used some honey in my tea yesterday but since I wasn’t really eating, I decided I shouldn’t beat myself up over it.  And then once I wanted to eat, the only thing that sounded even remotely decent was an oatmeal cookie so I said screw it. So yeah, I took yesterday off. I’m back at it today though. 

Two more days and then hubby is back home. Hopefully I’ll be more productive today and tomorrow.