Whats beyond human nature? *thinking* OW!MY BRAIN

Im writing again! I dont know why, considering I JUST saved the last entry. Oh well..

Hmm.. does anyone ever think of our lives, and how sheltered we all are? Ok, maybe not sheltered, but for the most part we have a pretty narrow viewpoint. Sure, there’s clothes and jobs, tv, movies, FOOD, school, just the way we live in general, relating to one another, and to this society that we’ve created.. but I wonder if there isn’t something more.. I mean, something simpler, yet bigger.. and I in no way mean this religiously.. It’s just, when I think about if all this stuff was gone, and I think about death, it just seems that the way we live our lives is so random and useless in a way.. like we’re all little dancing monkeys, or something.. yes, little dancing monkeys. “I’m dancing like a monkey!” as Gir would say. I just think.. there is a whole nother aspect to life that I haven’t really explored before.. this lifestyle is so strange, and I mean all of it.. from worrying about my hair, to putting on shoes, to walking down the street. It just kindof seems like Im living in some bubble, or Im part of some machine that I never even realized before. And in fact we all are part of some machine, functioning in a way that we’ve brought ourselves to function.. Im just wondering if there’s a way I could break out of that, and what possibly could lay beyond it.. Im not talking about being homeless, or being a hermit, or living off of nature, or living in a third world country or something.. because thats all still part of it.. I know there has to be something outside of that.. but I have no idea what it could be. I have no idea what it would be like, or if I would be able to handle it.. I wish I only knew how to get there.. but hell, maybe I dont. The way Im living my life, it seems, wont really matter in the long run.. and I know that since there have been soooo many people on the earth since humans have existed, we’re all just basically little specks in some huge thing that none of us could comprehend.. and for that reason, it seems like the stuff Im saying now, typing into this computer, doesnt really matter and is just part of this.. well, machine, even since Im talking about a computer.. but, well, nevermind.

And it even seems that since Im thinking this stuff, when I die it will all just float away to nowhere.. things I say, and do.. but right nowIm just thinking of what all there could possibly be.. even my state of mind needs to change.. so dramatically, and so completely, I might add. I have no idea what could be beyond it.. it seems beyond all logic and rational thought that there even COULD be something beyond all this, but I feel like there is.. I feel like there must be.. but I cant even comprehend it. It sounds like Im a damn crazy fool, and I guess I must be.. but see, that doesnt really matter. I cant find what matters.. I mean, hell, sure, family and friends.. whats past that? Maybe your inner self, your deepest soul. But whats past that? I dont know.. wow, my brain really does hurt now. Im tired. Think about all that for awhile.. CYAZ!